A Firm Line Needed

Have heard from a few people--including a party in the special police project--that they're concerned about homosexual pedophiles, especially some who are called "Minor Attracted Persons," or MAPs.  They say some MAPs act on their feelings, and some don't.  Nevertheless, I agree with the Bible that:  "Have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them.  For it is a shame even to speak of those things which are done of them in secret."  Ephesians 5:11, 12.  KJV.  [The Catholic Bible is similar.]  For the record, I've never heard of anyone within the police project who wants to support pedophiles of any kind.  The police, more than others, should be aware that any sexual activities with under-age people are abusive or criminal.  We need to be clear about this.  And I believe the pedophiles--by whatever name--deserve censure.  [If some haven't been acting out, that's a help; and I hope they'll stay that way and find other interests.  I believe God wants to help us make good choices and to do healthy, constructive activities.  And to find healthy relationships.]

As far as same-sex marriage goes, it always concerns two adults.  There used to be criminal laws against the practise of homosexuality but I believe those laws were unjust, as I've mentioned a few times in my church pamphlet.  Criminal laws which protect children and minor youths are not unjust.  Children and youths aren't able to give a responsible consent.  They're not mature enough and they're still growing and changing.  So, I believe we need to draw a firm line between gay marriage and any kind of pedophilia.--They're not related except possibly in some unusual situation.  I believe gay people need the freedom to be allowed to try to improve their lives by marriage, and we shouldn't make unjust comparisons with fringe problems.  In the past, some people used to associate all gays, or homosexuals, with pedophilia and it wasn't fair.  Have written about it in page 8 of my pamphlet, posted on April 25, 2022.

In adult sexual relationships, consent is important.  Nobody is legally allowed to force themselves on another person.  I don't believe that's going to change.  And minor persons aren't able to give an intelligent consent, as I said.  Same-sex marriage involves two consenting adults.  

Update--continued

Would like to clarify that the FIRST purpose in my own publicity is that I don't want people to continue to be offended from past misunderstandings and problems.  Also, I need to give SOME indication that SOMETHING is going on, even though I can't prove it...but it's not concerning the past Landlord/Tenant matter any longer--not for a long time.--And I think that's the main thing that people want to know about....  (There are some who are waiting to see a resolution to the special police project and I hope they will soon but it's not entirely up to me, and I can't force the police to do what we want....)

If they read my blog, my church friends will see that I'm promoting some LGBTQ issues....  If the church people have an interest, I don't want to make a big fuss or controversy but I'd ask them to pray about these matters.  That's all I want for the gay issues, and I believe prayer is effective.

Update

One of the main things I'm working on right now is to be able to advertise to my fellow church members across Canada about the true facts of my involvement in the special police project, although I'm not trying to prove anything...but I don't want people to be offended about past misunderstandings....  The former Landlord/Tenant matter and the related circumstances had been used to draw me into the police project....  In some ways, if I'd been a stronger person I wouldn't have been detained...but there was a good purpose intended, overall, except for the false gay story that still is circulating....  Anyway, I have an opportunity to do some good and I just need to wait for approval from some church authorities....  [Then, if I'm approved, I'll still have to wait for a publication process.]

In the USA, a Respect for Marriage Act was passed last week and it involves the acceptance of gay marriages which have already been performed....  Earlier, the Supreme Court had given approval but it wasn't made into law until now--after the President's final signature, which I'm sure will be forthcoming....  So, the Supreme Court won't have power to take away the rights, like they did with abortion recently.  I understand the marriage law allows some concessions for churches who don't believe in the practise of homosexuality.  

Am not sure if all the election results from last November are quite finished yet?  They were waiting to pass the Equality Act, a civil rights law which includes sexual orientation....  Of course, the Democrats support this law but the Republicans and some churches have been resisting....  I wish the United States the best with this law.

At least I have something legitimate to work on and I'll do my best to clear up misunderstandings....  These problems happened some time ago but people still seem to remember them.  

As for my church, I found out there's a department at the headquarters called the Biblical Research Institute; and they seem to be the real thinktank for the church's policies....  I sent them a few of what I believe were brief but pointed emails--and only short emails are allowed in the general mailbox.  They were "friendly pokes," in my opinion, and I don't know what else I can do?  They can take my ideas, or leave them.  Myself, I've had over 20 years to study LGBTQ issues, and something about abortion, and I can't expect everyone to change their views very quickly....  May God bless.

Notice for New Readers

If new readers are interested in my former, landlord/tenant matter, they should go to the Labels in the sidebar and click on the link for this subject.  That would provide the most convenient information.  Thank you.   

Accessing My Pamphlet

If anybody is interested in the pamphlet which I had earlier written for my church, and any other interested people, I'll give the dates where the pages can be found in the Archives....  Unfortunately, the blog isn't letting me add a new Label at this time.

The first five pages are found on November 1, 2021; and then there are an update and an amendment added on January 25, and April 25, 2022.  The Archives are listed in a sidebar on the left-hand side of the blog.  I believe it's possible to print the pamphlet pages, if people wish to.  

We're Discussing Things

Obviously, nothing happened with a public news story for the special police project this past Halloween.  Some of the police parties and I are discussing what we're going to do from here....  It may take a little time?  I'll give an update if and when something comes up.

Self-Interest and Theatrics

In my Waterlily Story III blog, I wrote earlier that the special police project for LGBTQs was a humanitarian project....  However, I also wrote there was money being earned; and that the police and their firefighter friends were connected to Hollywood....  Unless something significant happens within the next few days, I'm going to have to say that the project is being mismanaged and that the parties are looking out for self-interest and a theatrical show....  The humanitarian concerns have taken a back seat, if they're there at all...?

Some parties who are more sensible haven't been willing to come forward so far, for some reason, although all of them might not be allowed to, at this time?  Some of them make discreet comments to me; and I have contact on Facebook and elsewhere....

It is said that "A chain is no stronger than its weakest link," but in this case the chain itself is looking pretty bad, for the most part?  I feel sorry to see this.  Am I rushing things?  I know I've worked pretty hard, in the past six months or so--and I've been getting exhausted from my previous work--and we should be ready to go public....  

My Summary--continued

In case any of my church people need me to clarify about what I said about the Bible, I'll do that.  I do believe in the Bible, myself, first of all.  God created the Earth, and a male and a female--and He said His work was very good....  Then afterwards, sin came into the world....

In Romans 9:20, it talks about complaining against God....  I don't completely understand the situation but it's some kind of spiritual reasoning, it seems....  In Galatians 3:28, it says:  "There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female:  for ye are all one in Christ Jesus."  It doesn't really mean that male and female are done away with, but it's just emphasizing we should all live for God....  Is that fair to say?  But the distinctions of life don't really matter as much, after Jesus came to the earth and died for us.  Can I say that?  [Did the apostle Paul also say that it was good to be single, if possible, as he was?  Concentrate on serving the Lord.]

Before a Christian person accepts a sex change, I believe they should explore all their other options....  And as I said, parents could talk to their under-age children....  If people still can't find help and they want to insist that they belong to another gender, who am I to object?  [And parents could assist their child in dealing with the professionals....]  The advice of experts is that if the change begins earlier in life, it works better....  So, if the family would accept this matter and show as much support as they can after the change....  Do their best with what's available....  

[For the record, I'm glad I'm a woman and had a child.  It was a miraculous thing and a wonderful experience....  My romantic life has been kind of in shambles, in the past 20 years and more; but I had love before then....  There's the love of family and friends, also.  And I'm trying to get my work accomplished, of course--resolving the special police project--which isn't only my work.]

My Summary of Transgender Issues

My church allows transgender people into church membership if they're willing to abide by the moral standards--which means no sexual activities outside of marriage, and only heterosexual marriage is allowed.  I don't wish to debate anything further with my church.

Myself, I've seen that the Bible says this and that, and it can be used to support various views.  Generally, my church believes we should take the full Bible in context...but even then it's possible to get some support for non-binary and maybe transgender people, in my opinion....  Anyway, the public and even many Christians don't care so much about the Bible any more....

The human rights laws refer to "human dignity;" and I believe we should treat the trans and non-binary people with this quality.  We're all human beings and everyone wants to be treated with fairness and decency.

Also, I can make choices for my own life but can't choose for anyone else--not even if I had an under-aged child or children at home....  

The helping professions, like medical people and social workers, have sometimes been accused of promoting transgender options aggressively for a monetary interest.  It's increased business for them!?  But I wish they would try to work with what is best for each of their patients or clients; and every person needs to make an effort to stand up for themselves and their interests.  Parents should also work with their under-age children, as far as possible.  

[Have read or heard that men are generally left-brain oriented, which gives them an emphasis in logical reasoning; and it's their natural tendency to want to accomplish things--it's their main priority, unless they make a conscious effort to think differently.  And women are generally right-brain oriented, which has a tendency to make them emotional-thinkers; and their first focus is on relationships, including family....  It used to be that most women stayed home to raise the family while the husband and father went to work.  Now, a lot of women go to work also, and that's good and often necessary...but I think it makes the distinctions between men and women less clear...!?  I believe we'll continue to see non-binary and perhaps transgender people in our society.  Some non-binary people want to say they're superior to males and females but I don't think that's fair either.  We need to learn how to get along together.]

Not For Forcing Change, But To Show Support...

Was just reading that the American Psychological Association had earlier disapproved of attempts to change anyone's sexual orientation, and more recently disapproved of attempts to change anyone's gender identity....  What I was referring to in my blog was the opportunity for parents to talk to their under-age children and youths at home....  Not for demanding change but just for showing support and asking to know what the issues are...?  Perhaps the children wouldn't all be able to explain but I believe some of them could....  If some issues could get resolved, it'd be preferable.  Anything is worth a try, in my opinion!

[For example, one transgender man said that when he was little, his mother used to make him wear dresses which had scratchy tags on them.  He/she was physically uncomfortable!  And I've heard of a girl who wore "scratchy tights."  We should be able to find comfortable clothing for different occasions....  Of course, there may be a little more than this in transgender issues, but it might start with small things, for all we know!?]

 

Will This Be Our Year...?

If I haven't said so clearly enough in my recent posts, I've been hoping for and working on a resolution to the special police project in the near future....  Some police wanted to do a public news story at a Halloween time--can we make this our year??? 

If not, I'm not sure I'll continue helping the police....  I might have to take a stand, to say we NEED to go public, and to quit....  I don't believe there's any reason why we need to work in secret any longer...!?  Our society has evolved enough....  

How Will Some Police Respond?

If some police are prejudiced about transgender issues, I hope they can recognize that we have some choices with our own lives, and to some degree our families....  I'm sorry that anybody has to feel gender confusion and go through struggles....  But it happens.  And I hope the police will recognize that they also have a choice about how they're going to respond to other people...!?  Do we need to continue debating about this...if so, I'd rather not participate any longer.  We haven't discussed much about transgender issues but now it's out in the open.  And I'll write a little more separately....

Can We Get Past Some Prejudice?--Part 2

Continued from part 1, below.

The last I heard, the schools in the province of Ontario were following a philosophy called "humanism," which states that anything a human being--like a young student--can imagine or do is okay as long as it isn't hurtful to another person....  Something like that?  So, if I may say, all the transgender issues are acceptable to the public schools....  I've heard the schools are teaching about this subject within their sex education classes....  I don't think we can get away from it, if we want to...except maybe we can remove our children from these classes, which probably don't happen frequently within a school year?  Otherwise, I've read the American psychologists are encouraging each other to do public advocacy about transgender issues....  It may be the same in Canada, and other places?  This is a growing phenomenon.

In the 1990s, a psychologist named John Gray published a book called "Men are From Mars, Women are From Venus."  I believe I read the book at the time, although I don't remember everything.  Dr. Gray was bringing out some characteristics that might be typical for many men and women, and it's sometimes hard to understand each other...!  Afterwards, some other experts put Gray down and said we're all human beings, with the same needs and interests....  I think the experts were partly right, but Dr. Gray was partly right also--and I believe he meant to use some humour!?  Anyway, if we want to, I believe it's possible to study and understand human behaviour better....  There's information available, from many sources.  No one is forced to study, however, and if people are satisfied to go along with society they can do that....  As far as transgender issues go, people are taking them seriously....  

In Canada, we're starting to have some problems with our health care system, partly due to the pandemic but not completely.  As long as people have money--from somewhere--and have the procedures available, they can do sex changes....  And I believe it's best to accept these people and their wishes....  Like I've said, we can do something to look out for our own families, if we wish to....  Otherwise, it's good to be respectful.  

If some police could get past their own prejudice, it would help our project....  And I don't want to continue writing very much more, if I can help it?  The police can work on their own....  Will write separately about my hopes for this year....

Can We Get Past Some Prejudice...?

There was a trans woman I saw a few years ago in several different locations, and I overheard her talking to other people.  Some of her comments about her sex change were boastful and flippant.  I have to say she didn't give me a good impression of transgender people...but I knew they weren't all like that.  A little later, I came in contact with another trans woman; and this individual has seemed to be a happy, friendly, and confident person.  She seems to be doing very well....  I don't know if some of the drag queens have shows on TV?  I've seen something in the newspapers, in passing, but haven't had TV service at my home for some time....  There may be some police who are involved in the police project, who themselves are prejudiced against transgender people?--I've seen evidence to suggest that, if I'm not mistaken.  But I think it makes a difference about what information a person has received about trans people...?

When I was looking up the World Professional Association for Transgender Health/WPATH a few days ago, I thought I saw the credentials of some of the members...but I can't find the same information today.  But I'm sure many of the members are medical doctors and psychologists; and some, if not all, are transgender.  I was glad to see that they had gotten good educations and were successful in life....  They were also helping other transgender people.  

Have read that WPATH recommends that when hormone therapy is started earlier in life, rather than later, a transition is more successful....  [And unfortunately, too many trans people don't do well.]  There was a case in the courts in Canada, where divorcing parents disagreed about hormone therapy for their under-aged teen, and the one who disagreed lost his case!  Should other parents be afraid that their child may be given hormone therapy without their consent?  If people are concerned about this, I recommend that they take any significant problems with gender dissatisfaction in their child seriously.  Don't ignore it!  And I would want to talk to my child in a very kind, patient and intelligent way--to know what the problem is and what could perhaps be done?  I wouldn't want to be demanding and controlling....  Some transgender people maybe would've had a hard time explaining what the problem was--they felt trapped in a gender they didn't want...?  It may not be easy but I believe it'd be worth a try!  Maybe a problem could be resolved without treatment?

Continued in Part 2.

Some Transgender Issues--not just from police

Some people seem to have been nervous of what the police were doing for transgender rights...?  But I have to say the police don't seem to have done all that much, from what I can see...but there are psychologists, health professionals, and social workers supporting people; and also the public schools are educating children and youths about sex education and gender issues....  

Transgender issues seem to go all around the world, and there's an organization called "World Professional Association for Transgender Health"/WPATH.  It was founded in 1979 and is non-profit.

Someone expressed a concern to me that children--at least in our Canadian province of British Columbia so far--can start hormone therapy without the consent of their parents....  I did a little research and found the youths get detailed assessments done; and there would be a long and intense pattern of gender problems....  They don't just start therapy on a whim, or a passing phase, that a young person might be going through....  The young person is supposed to be informed of all the pros and cons...and give some kind of reasonable consent....  And in B.C., it seems the government is following advice from the WPATH.  I read briefly the other day that they have some competent professional people behind them....  

If we don't like transgender activities, I think we can still respect the choices of others....  We can live our own genders as we like, but we have to respect others.  That's how I see it.

[Right now, I'm just passing some time and waiting for parties in the special police project to consider if they can be ready with a public announcement at this Halloween...?] 

What Does American Psychology Say About Homosexuality?

Have done a little research on the American Psychological Association and their views on homosexuality [and transgender people].  Was interested to see what they had to say?  It seems they've mostly supported the American Psychiatric Association, from what I could see--no major differences.  [From a quick study.]  

The trans laws have been going back and forth within the past seven or eight years, it seems.  Some people say it's good for discussion....  

There was an article I found from 2011, written by a Ph.D. person and posted on a reputable American website--although they didn't necessarily support the views [PMC--PubMed Central].  This article promoted the idea of "developmental-psychological causation" of homosexuality, which was a point that came up in 1998 in my legal matters....  However, it seems to be an unpopular view in the world....  [I understand that and don't wish to debate it.]

If some of the police want to continue working on the LGBTQ rights, I'm sure they'd have enough work to do--for some time....  Points could be debated all over the place, I think?  And I don't believe I need to be caught up in it endlessly.... 

These are just a few comments.

Prominent Psychiatrist--continued

Have done a double-check of my research.  According to the last diagnostic manual of psychiatrists, number 5, in 2013, homosexuality isn't considered to be any kind of a disorder at all, as far as I understand.  Therefore, psychiatrists wouldn't deal with it....  A psychiatrist who recently retired would've gone through a lot of changes in his profession's views on it...!  And psychology is the field that studies human behaviour as it relates to emotions, I believe--the mind and the emotions, rather than the mind and mental illnesses.  

The prominent psychiatrist whom I've been referring to may or may not know that I've been on false mental health charges....  Some police have been covering up the fact that they've worked with Hollywood in their special project for LGBTQs...but others say I'm imagining things....  [I have the feeling that this psychiatrist knows I'm not?]

Well, life is complicated!  

Personal Memories--continued

My parents were immigrants from Europe who came here shortly before I was born.  They had to learn a new language, although they might've had a little training in it earlier.  They were also newly married and my mom went to college to get a job skill.  My mom was somewhat feminine, but not VERY feminine, I'd say.--And she didn't have time to dress up my sisters and me with a lot of frills.  She did buy or make us some "crinolines" one time, which were in style....  But I haven't been a frilly girl.  And that's okay, in my opinion.  I like to dress up when I can, but not all the time.  In our Canadian climate, we also have to be warm in the winter....  If I would've had more money in the past while, I would've dressed better--but you do what you can....  I don't want to start explaining too many things but I suppose I have time in this month now, and if I haven't already explained something....  

Some Personal Memories...

When I first started school in Kindergarten, a long time ago, my mother used to walk me to school.  There was some kind of a large foghorn--or something--on top of one of the buildings along the way.  My mother told me it reminded her of World War II, which she lived through as a teenager--running to bomb shelters; and it made her nervous. I got a bad impression of war and never wanted to be a boy, who might have to go to war!  [And these days, even some girls might be forced to go.]

When I was young, I usually had a crush on a boy....  There were different boys at different times, and I mostly admired them from a distance.  I was usually too shy to talk to them.  In my teens, I had a few boyfriends....  When I met my husband-to-be, I felt more feminine at that time because he was quite masculine--he liked fishing, hunting, and trapping or live trapping....  It's fun to dress up sometimes but I don't like to take a lot of time to fuss with my appearance on a daily basis--I do what's necessary, more or less.  [And I'm not getting any younger!]

While I've been working on this police project, I've been pretty tied up!  Dating has been a very narrow option for me, unfortunately....  They say you get what you can pay for in dating, if you're honest, and I haven't been able to afford much!  Anyway, I've been busy...the work has provided me some entertainment, and I've even been able to connect better with my now late, ex-husband, as surprising as that may sound....  [Earlier, I said he inspired me in a spiritual way and that was true, but he was also very charming and intelligent which I appreciated.  I liked--or loved--his personality!  And his appearance appealed to me.  It was just that he had a drinking problem...and there were issues with the police project, which he wasn't able to tell me everything about at the time....  It's too bad I wasn't a strong enough person at the time, myself, to deal with everything,]

My Humble Opinions About a Prominent Psychiatrist

There has been a certain RCMP division HQ which has been unusually quiet as I've been discussing concluding the special police project....  Also, I heard a hint a while ago about a prominent psychiatrist who had been hired to give advice in this project....  It was only a hint and I wasn't sure what was going on...?  Now, I have to look at this psychiatrist--who had officially retired approximately ten years ago...(officially, but not necessarily in fact?).

When I read about this man's employment a long time ago, I knew he must be a very intelligent person--maybe a genius?  However, I purchased and read a book called "Emotional Intelligence" by Daniel Goleman.  The author states that people who are very intelligent too often don't do as well with their emotions.--High IQ, low EQ.--I know of three other men who this seems to apply to; and I've been somewhat guilty myself, over the years.

Anyway, I've also dealt with a lot of other psychiatrists and I've noticed they don't seem to understand "psychology" as well as psychiatry.  After all, psychology is a different branch of study and there are psychologists who specialize in it.  (I stated in my pamphlet a long time ago that I believed homosexuality was related more to psychological issues than to psychiatry.)

Besides that, I heard that the prominent psychiatrist above was GIVEN the idea that I was gay when he first began with the police project.  Maybe he took it very seriously, but he never spoke directly to me or examined me; and the people who informed him never did either!  I don't know if this psychiatrist was directed to read all that I wrote in my blogs and elsewhere?--I doubt it.  But if he did, he missed something.

To recap, psychiatrists don't know as much about psychology--which deals with the emotional life; intelligent people may be weaker in their emotional lives; and the prominent psychiatrist has never even interviewed or examined me directly.

According to my research, the American psychiatrists deal with homosexual patients if they feel distress about their sexual orientation or if they are forensic cases--where a criminal law was broken.  I was a forensic case at the beginning because I was falsely accused--which some people know.  My case also involved a gay landlord, and I've acknowledged I made mistakes and have apologized--with charitable cash contributions; and I've blogged about it extensively, and sufficiently, in my opinion.  And I feel no distress about my sexual orientation [only about being harassed and denied my pay].

 

I Have a "Plan B"

Last spring and early summer, I didn't think the police project was going to be ready to go public by this fall--a Halloween time has been the anticipated time....  But the police and their supporters were motivating me...we were working pretty hard...and now I'm totally ready to see the news conference....  I believe it's the best option.--And that's my Plan A.

There seem to have been at least three or four different parties who were told they could be in charge of the special police project, and these people presumably also wanted to be the spokespeople at the conclusion....  Some of the parties didn't, and don't, even know about each other....  It's my luck that I was informed....  But we have to understand that not everyone can be in charge.  It's not possible!  Also, the police in my area get very good pay, and I have reason to believe a few of the civilian supporters receive pay from the police; and unfortunately these people have no incentive to wrap things up...!  It's not like some of us who had wanted to find a job and get paid--make a living--and this thing turned out to be a lot more than we expected!  Sure, at times there were indications that God wanted me to work on this project...but I also had some mistaken facts, sometimes....  

Some of the police and civilian supporters had also wanted to make some extra money through the police project...and that was fair if they were made reasonable promises....  It WAS one of the goals at the beginning, to make money...!  I believe the police have a responsibility to look out for the well-being of their civilian supporters, to some degree--especially myself, who has been very heavily involved--and I was asked to be, directly or indirectly.  

Just recently, I turned an official retirement age.  It's very good if some people are willing and able to work beyond their retirement age...but I haven't had a normal work history....  This hasn't been a normal business, for me....  And the way things are going, the police could continue on for an indefinite number of years....  There's no end in sight!  They can try to do good, yes, but they need a plan if they're asking civilians to be involved and are holding up funds that were promised....  

Would like to say that if the police don't go public by this Halloween, I'm going to take a stand and quit working for them.  I believe the public also has a right to know what's going on.  [Not that I'm going to tell them.]  There's no need to work in secret any longer, in my opinion.  

If there's no news conference now and I quit working, my life will be challenged, no doubt.  I have a shadow over me--with false criminal charges and false mental health charges--and I can't just carry on with something else, like someone else might.  But that's okay.  I want to take a stand--if we don't find our success by this Halloween.  I haven't had a chance to discuss it with my son yet, but based on other conversations we've had I believe he'll support me.  

The special police project had started off with good intentions, more or less, and some respectability--90 years ago!  I'd like to see them come to a respectable conclusion, rather than mucking along continually....  We need a conclusion.  Then some police could continue working openly.  That's my view, and my first wish.  And if it doesn't work out, my Plan B is to take a stand and quit working, as I said above.

Some Gender Terms

According to a little Internet research, the term "transsexual" is now under the category of "transgender."

The legal definitions of gender are:  man, woman, and non binary.  Binary means something to the effect of two categories existing, and the non binary means an alternate category.  I understand the American psychiatrists refer to transgender people as having "gender dysphoria," which means they're dissatisfied or anxious about their gender at birth and the assumed roles of that gender....  

Some other terms under transgender are:  pangender, polygender, agender and genderqueer.

It seems the world has some kind of understanding of transgender people, although more work can be done...and in my opinion, the special police project doesn't need to work on this matter discreetly.  As I said yesterday, I believe some police could work openly after a public news conference, if they wish to.

Let's Make This Our Year!??

Have been working and praying that this might be the year the special police project would hold a public news conference, to tell their story!  Myself, I don't know what other work is left to do...?  It's possible some of the police will continue to work on the issues openly, after the news story, and I think that'd be good and preferable rather than holding things up any longer....  I don't have a Plan B in mind....  The publicity is all I want to aim for, although it's not me who'll do it....  [Am trying to get the police, and their lawyers, to come together better.]  May God help us!

People Talk...

The police began their special project in times when there was extreme prejudice against gays.  Besides that, they wanted to make money from the project--and they have, even though most of it hasn't been paid out yet, as far as I know...?  Myself, I've been one woman among mostly men, although there have been more women becoming police officers.  There has been plenty of room for prejudice, even within our group; and lots of room for competition, which was specifically encouraged in the past....  And not even to mention that some firefighters have been involved, and there's been competition between the police and firefighters! 

There has been evidence that some police also lied to each other, both full lies and white lies....  It shouldn't be too surprising what they'd say about me....  Besides, there has been the element of possible improved spirituality for LGBTQs, which I mentioned briefly earlier.  The police project isn't directly about spirituality but there's a potential there; and this is a new phenomenon.  Anything new, and especially spiritual matters, are usually subject to a lot of opposition.

Whether deliberately or not, the police may lie, exaggerate, or misunderstand things about me; and sometimes they want to put pressure on me to get me to give them information--they have their interrogation techniques and strategies that they use.  Unfortunately, not all the police have been working together at all times....  Myself, I've made enough mistakes but I believe I've made corrections and amends, as far as possible....

If I may say, the apostles in the Bible times were preaching the gospel and they did nothing wrong.  But they faced lying witnesses, and Paul said in 1 Corinthians 4:13, "We are made as the filth of the world, and are the offscouring of all things unto this day."  King James Version.  [I checked a Catholic Mission Bible and it's very similar.]  An "offscouring" means matter scoured off, or anything vile or despised....

If people talked against the apostles, it's no wonder they'd talk against anyone else.  Not that I want to compare myself to the apostles exactly, but I believe there's some room for comparison....  So, let's not be surprised.

A Few Words in Support of Transsexual People

It was a surprise to me recently to hear that transsexual people, especially trans women, don't live all that long....  It seems to be worse outside of North America where they might not receive a legal status and proper ID cards, and it affects their lives significantly.  Many trans people attempt suicide and some get murdered.  They have certain health problems, including heart disease, lung cancer, and HIV-related diseases.  As far as I understand, research hasn't concluded if the hormone treatments have an effect on their health?  In Argentina, most of the transsexuals live in poverty and they resort to prostitution to get by.

If the laws and the health care systems allow people to do sex changes, we pretty much have to accept them, in my opinion.  I believe we normally should accept people where they're at, and the transsexuals shouldn't be an exception.  Their health and perhaps their living conditions would improve to some degree.

Rumours Aren't Helpful

On my Facebook, I get a lot of posts from American police; and they give hints about what they're thinking in the special police project....  I've had some concerns.  Earlier, I heard a rumour that some American police were prejudiced against one of our Canadian parties...won't get into the details now....  It's possible Americans could be prejudiced against some Canadians, or against gays, or just against gay marriage...!?  I'd like us to get all the facts.  Unpleasant rumours aren't helpful and we really need to know the whole story....  There have also been some Jews involved with some Canadian police....

There have been stories that "the Jews" said or did this and that....  And people thought it was one group.  But actually, there have been many Jews or groups of Jews who have contributed something to the police project....  I really hope we can get ALL the facts and not act from misinformation or prejudice. 

Do We Know What is "Civilized?"

In the past, I've heard stories that some police and Hollywood people wanted to have a RESPECTABLE conclusion to the special police project for LGBTQs.  I don't know if these people are around any longer but I've appreciated their view and have wanted to support it.  It's been a little difficult, however... unfortunately.  But leaving that aside, I'd like us to be CIVILIZED....  

We have a fancy new, human rights museum in the city of Winnipeg, in Manitoba.  There've been stories that the police project wanted to have a news conference and/or a display there....  Would it be fair to say that our main spokesman needs to be a CIVILIZED person...???  And if a person has been an antagonistic or aggressive "provoker," rather than a "messenger of peace," is it a civilized wish for them to be the spokesman?  

Myself, I've been accused of not having clear thinking at times....  But I wonder if the police and their associates are always thinking clearly...?  Okay, it's just my opinion....  Just my opinion.

[It's possible someone had a respectable career in the past...and that's fine and good.  But if they've spent the last 20+ years being a "provoker," would it be civilized or respectable for them to be placed as the spokesman...?]

One other point is that maybe some people have wanted a "roadblock" to be the punchline--the bottom line--of the special police project...? 

Peace and Good News

Have found a Bible verse which I believe relates to people who have worked in the special police project....  It's Isaiah 52:7, "How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of the messenger who announces peace, who brings good news...."  New Revised Standard Version.  [I checked in one version of a Catholic Bible--which wasn't their main Bible--and it was very similar.  I believe their regular Bible would be similar also.]  I'm not very knowledgeable about Bible history and facts outside of the Bible, but the Bible says there were [small] mountains around the city of Jerusalem.  The messengers used to travel on foot, I'm sure, and they had to pass over the mountains in coming and going....  This verse also refers to preaching the gospel, and the police project isn't about the full gospel, but as I said to others recently I believe the police project helps gays to be more open to the POSSIBILITY  of accepting the gospel....  And not that all of the police care about religious explanations or the gospel....

All the facts haven't been proven yet but there used to be a lot more discrimination and harassment against gays [and some issues with transsexuals...] in our society, and the police project has helped to reduce these problems greatly.  I believe this was "good news" and helped to bring more peace to the gays....  The police who were involved--not all police were, and some firefighter friends, and Hollywood friends, and some civilian and government supporters have helped!  They were "messengers of peace."  [And I include myself, also.]

For the record, there have been some parties who were not "messengers of peace" but they were provokers, and even roadblocks, at times....  Some had extenuating circumstances and some were a combination of these things.  But if there was a "provoker" who wanted to get someone else to say positive things, and they didn't contribute any positive input themselves, should they get the same credit as a "messenger?"  I believe everyone should get their dues--and I mean that in a positive way....  But we need to be realistic.  

Will write some more in a separate post.

Do the Conservative Christians Have Any Excuse?

Have recently found another passage in the Bible which I believe shows that Christians should support the gay marriage rights.  The passage is, l Peter 2:13, 14, "Submit yourselves to every ordinance of man for the Lord's sake: whether it be to the king, as supreme; or unto governors, as unto them that are sent by him for the punishment of evildoers, and for the praise of them that do well."  King James Version.  An ordinance is a law--it's in the dictionary.  I think I've heard the term "ordinance" used in city politics, especially.  

Christians will excuse themselves from following the laws if they believe a law is a direct violation of their conscience.  However, I've stated before that the Apostle Paul wrote in 1 Corinthians 5 [verse 12] about sexual immorality and he said, "For what have I to do to judge them also that are without...?"  King James Version.  Paul's advice was that we shouldn't judge people who are OUTSIDE of the church.  If people do, I believe their consciences are overly-sensitive and the Christians are being over-controlling of others.  So, I believe the above text about following the ordinances of man is relevant.

The last I heard, it was some Protestant Christians in the USA--besides my church--who were resisting the anti-discrimination law, including gay marriage.  From what I've seen and heard of the Catholic Church, or the pope, they've come to terms with the special police project and they're not trying to fight the issues...?  [Although I don't know if gay marriage is "law" in the USA at this time, or if it was just a ruling by the Supreme Court...?  Nevertheless, I believe it should be respected.]

If some American police are talking to their community and government contacts, they might want to consider the above information.  But I don't think the police project needs to wait for the decisions....  I think we need to go forward, regardless....

Note added on September 26, 2022:  In North America, I believe we still have "religious exemptions" for gay marriage, which means that ministers who object for conscientious reasons aren't required to perform these marriages.  I agree with this and think it's fair.  Otherwise, I believe people should pretty much respect the gay marriage rights.

Sometimes The Police Do Die

In the past few weeks or so, there were several police officers who died in my general local area, that I know of....  One died from a criminal act by an attacker, one died from an apparent drunk driver, and one died from illness....  It's sad but it's a real fact that sometimes the police die, especially while on the job....  Have commented about the above deaths to my police sources already and I don't want to say a lot more.  But I'm sorry the deaths happened.  There have been and are different events being planned to honour the officers.

People say police are "heroes in life" because every officer is doing their part to keep peace and order in our communities.  We don't want the police to take unnecessary risks--consciously or unconsciously--in trying to be heroes, and possibly come to harm.  We want them to live and do their work as long as possible.  Every officer is a hero.  [Sometimes the police are heroes in death, also, but we don't wish it to happen.]

The Police are "Heroes in life!"

 As I said to someone recently, the police--all of them--are "Heroes in life" and they're very busy with their regular duties....  The special police project for LGBTQs has been sort of on the back burner, it seems; and maybe the police don't always give it their full attention and it's not a high priority...!?  That's the police who are involved, that is....  Among them, they've too often had some sensational and unrealistic ideas...they've worked with film and television people...and they've had some aggressive lawyers who were hired for the purpose of helping the special project....  But sometimes the lawyers are kind of laid back, also....  

In my opinion, we need a person or party who is willing to be credible and respectable--and to tell the facts of the police project....  We need a reputable spokesperson or group....  There have been parties in the past who wanted to be respectable....  They also wanted to have a little fun, with a news story at Halloween....  So, respectability and some fun--is there anything wrong with that?  If some police and their civilian associates aren't capable of delivering this, maybe they'd be willing to step aside and let someone else do it?  What can be done???  The clock is ticking for this Halloween...!  We don't want to spend another year mucking around....

In approximately this past year, I was trying to humour and help some local police with their issues in the police project....  Unfortunately, I wasn't very successful in what I wanted to do...I tried....  Some doors were closed, regarding my conservative church and I believe I have to leave them--besides there is the danger of society going backwards, as we saw with abortion rights in the USA.  [The local police and I did clarify some business issues....]  I don't believe there's anything else that I want to work on....  The police and their associates haven't brought up anything to me, themselves, for quite a long time--many of them have only been trying to promote a false, gay story about me...!  I've denied the story and my life has been an open book in my 4-part blog!  What else do they need?  I've gone over my life--from beginning until the present--with a fine-toothed comb, so to speak....  

Do the unrealistic police need a voice from heaven to tell them what to do?  I'm trying to pray and there isn't very much more that I can do....

Wrapping Up One Issue

 As far as the special police project goes, I think I have to get off the topic of abortion....  We've wanted to show some support and we did...but it's a very complicated topic right now and may be bigger than gay rights...!  So, I don't want to get sidetracked any more....  For my own personal reasons, I can write about abortion in the future if there are issues....  

[Actually, I saw a program from my church on Roku TV not too long ago and a man who was interviewed expressed regret about his and his former partner's involvement with abortion....  I think people could go to grief support groups after abortion, if needed...?  It's not to say that abortion is murder--I don't believe so--but maybe sometimes people don't think about it enough BEFORE it happens....  Then, sometime later on, they might feel sorrow....  But we can get support in grieving, if it's needed!  I think it's entirely appropriate, and the support groups are usually readily available....]

Strict Christian Standards

Regarding the renewed abortion concerns in the USA, the Bible is quite clear that "Thou shalt not kill," but I believe people who use this to forbid all abortions are following the "letter of the law."  There's a Bible verse that says, "Who also hath made us able ministers of the new testament, not of the letter, but of the spirit: for the letter killeth, but the spirit giveth life."  2 Corinthians 3:6.  I believe the "spirit of the law" means that there can be forgiveness and mercy, and not everyone's situations are the same....  Something like that.

The police, or at least the traffic police, might understand the letter of the law?  Or they use a term called "going by the book."  Some officers or judges in the courts may be known for being sticklers for the law....  They always want to follow all the rules and make sure they're doing everything just right, according to their understanding of the law....  But maybe many other officers and judges know that there can be mercy given....  They give people a break sometimes....  

Pls, Let's Not Remain Quiet...

It was a happy day for the anti-abortion people in the USA last Friday when the Supreme Court struck down the earlier precedent-setting case from 1973...!  And one of the justices was reported as saying he wants to re-open the questions of gay marriage and gay sex....  I think this man lives in a dark place where social rights are concerned....

Myself, I've made a suggestion to my police associates that we can continue working on the LGBTQ rights but we'd have a chance to generate good publicity if we could go forward with our public news story this year--they wanted to do it at a Halloween time....  Some of us have already spent decades working on this matter, and we have a right to be acknowledged openly and to get our pay....  There have also been many community members and church members who have supported the police and they've apparently been forced to remain quiet!?  I'd really like to see us go public.

In my opinion, nobody has a realistic expectation that the police and their Hollywood friends should have to resolve all the issues in gay rights....  We've done a lot, a lot has changed, and I believe it'd be good--it'd be preferable--to go public very soon.  I understand that this year marks the 90th anniversary of the beginning of the special police project.

An Extra Issue

Have added a short note to the recent Update--April 20--for new readers.  Just wanted to say that besides helping with the LGBTQ+ rights, the police in the special project have wanted to show support for abortion rights.--Some police have, actually, while others may not be completely on board...!?  The civilian associates may have various opinions also....  Gay rights and abortion rights are fairly significant social issues, in my opinion. 

Some Follow-Up Details

There are around four million births in the USA each year.  I'd like to be positive and say that most of these are happy events.  However, there are about 800 deaths of the mothers during childbirth or within 42 days after giving birth also.  Black women are affected more than whites.  An independent, non-profit media organization, "NPR," is reporting on the Internet that there are an estimated 50,000 other mothers who come close to dying each year, as well....  And there is emotional and financial trauma for the mothers and their families....  

Most countries of the world have reduced their rates of death in childbirth but the American rates have actually gone up, for different reasons....  Some politicians and a business have designated funds to try to improve this situation, over time....  Hemorrhaging is one of the leading underlying causes of pregnancy-related deaths and 70% of these are said to be preventable, according to research found by a writer for the Journal of the American Medical Association/JAMA Network.  

In the state of Texas, suicide, homicide, and drug-overdoses account for nearly half of the post-partum deaths....  Texas has also tightened their abortion restrictions severely, starting last fall....  

According to the Internet, abortion rights have generally been increasing throughout the world.  I saw on the Pew Research Center website recently that a lot of people in the States would support abortion but wouldn't mind some restrictions....  The full-term abortion rights are fairly generous, in my opinion, except if there are actual physical problems with the fetus or if there's a physical danger to the mother--even if these problems are diagnosed late in the pregnancy....  

In the 1980s, some anti-abortion people were quite violent and caused millions of dollars worth of property damage.  I hope that people could be sensible and consider all the issues involved!?  

The Christian Researchers--Part 3

In my church's pamphlet on abortion, I almost have to thank one of their references for stating that choosing a mother over her unborn child opens the door for abortion....  A mother may already have enough other children to care for...or she may be contributing to society through her career--if not in a helping profession, through another necessary product or service...!  Other lives may very well depend on a woman, whether she's a Christian or not....

A different Christian leader, who appears on television, stated that abortion is like in the Bible when some heathens gave their young children to their gods--the children were burned in fires....  (See Leviticus 18:21 or 2 Kings 23:10)  Have read on the Internet that some people in Uganda have practised child sacrifices; and it's considered to be child abuse, and laws have been enacted against it.  Abortion isn't child abuse, in my opinion.

Was a little concerned about the second- and third-trimester abortions, or abortion rights, that  I've heard about....  But I've read from credible sources on the Internet, including CNN, that the abortions later in pregnancy are more rare....  They're usually done because of health problems in the unborn or that would cause problems for the mother in delivery....  Some of these problems aren't able to be diagnosed until later in the pregnancies....  When doctors have to face legal problems or delays in doing these abortions, it can affect the mothers....  For this reason, I believe the laws should be flexible to cover last-minute problems that can come up....  It doesn't seem to be a question of healthy mothers wanting to abort healthy and viable fetuses....  

A few years ago, Donald Trump was reportedly stirring up controversy about abortion and after-birth death at a political rally....  I've read on a website from the Netherlands that third-trimester abortion and euthanasia after birth are legal in the case of untreatable medical problems which cause unbearable suffering....  Again, it's not healthy babies which are in question....  [Also, in some cases of giving birth, a mother can bleed to death....  There are many possible complications and the average person doesn't understand them all.]

The Christian Researchers--Part 2

It wasn't my intention to embarrass my church here, but I suppose they have to take responsibility for who they're going to follow....  Maybe I'll give them a chance to respond to these blog posts, if they're interested?  (Some people at the church headquarters used to read my blog but am not sure they've always continued?)  [I'll send them an email.]  Have I mentioned my church didn't used to oppose abortion over 30 years ago?

Whatever else can be said about an embryo or fetus, I believe it's true that they don't have a conscience.  Some of the researchers wanted Christians to pity and defend the lives of the unborn, on account of them being helpless....  But as I said, I believe God wants us to help and defend ALL the disadvantaged people in this world, as far as possible.  And we're supposed to preach the gospel to everyone.  A youth or adult person who has been living in this earth has been invested in--and they have choices to make regarding good and evil.  The unborn have been invested in fairly little....  For most young adults, it doesn't take a lot to get pregnant....

Is it fair to spend our resources--if we don't feel prepared for whatever reason--on bringing up the unborn?  

The researchers who don't value the lives of mothers over the unborn are almost guilty of violence towards women, in my opinion.  Under normal circumstances, wouldn't a reasonable person choose the mother's life over the baby's--if only one of them could be saved [due to some unusual health circumstances]?

Pregnancy and childbirth can be a wonderful and miraculous experience...but unfortunately it isn't always seen that way and it may be for good reason....  Medical science has given pregnant women a choice, if they're allowed to use it.

The Christian Researchers Missed Something

My church has published a booklet on abortion which is available to download for free--Release #20--at  "adventistbiblicalresearch.org," as of this date....  The name of the department is the Biblical Research Institute, at the church headquarters in the USA.  This booklet was written by a man, with references to books written by other men who aren't in my church....  These men seem to be quite well-educated...except they've never been a mother...!

One of the first authorities quoted in the booklet suggests that the New Testament of the Bible is symbolic; and since Mary and her cousin Elizabeth, the mothers of Jesus and John the Baptist were happy when they found out they were pregnant, all women should be happy when they get pregnant...!  Never mind that Jesus was arguably the most significant historical person who ever lived.

If the above male researchers want to study the Bible, maybe they should read Matthew 24:19, "Woe to those who are pregnant and to those who are nursing infants in those [last] days!"  NRSV--New Revised Standard Version, my brackets.  If this is a literal--and symbolic--meaning, I believe it means that IN SOME CASES, pregnancy and caring for a helpless infant are not desirable...!?

Further in the booklet, some other experts don't want to value a mother's life over an unborn child's life--in cases where one of the lives needs to be sacrificed for health reasons.  Hasn't the mother had a lot invested in her life, for her to have arrived at an adult age?  Isn't this investment worth something?  These experts say this line of reasoning opens the door to abortion for any reason....  And isn't that almost the bottom line, I'd like to ask?

In my view, an embryo and a young fetus are alive--they're "life."  But they're not viable until a certain stage....  If a woman ACCIDENTALLY becomes pregnant when she didn't mean to, there may be factors which are a greater consideration in life than the task of raising a new person to responsible adulthood....

According to my beliefs God gives new life; and He gives it when a sperm fertilizes the egg.  Period. I believe a distinction should be made between early abortions and late abortions....  These decisions shouldn't be made lightly....  But life comes in many forms and we have the underprivileged among us and throughout the world.  I believe God wants us to help them [see Matthew 25, in the New Testament and Isaiah 58, in the Old Testament].  We also have to take care of ourselves and live our best lives....

Medical science has given us fairly safe, simple, and effective ways to end unwanted pregnancies.  Should society--or Christians--demand that these methods never be used?  And should women be forced to endure the pregnancies and then go through the heartbreak and anguish of giving their babies away in adoption--not to mention that the children might suffer in their lifetimes also?

What Will the Supreme Court of the U.S. Decide?

The Supreme Court abortion case in the United States involves the previous, landmark Roe v. Wade case from 1973....  This case allowed abortion for all women in the first trimester of pregnancy on the grounds of privacy in healthcare.  The moral issues weren't discussed, as far as I know?  And I believe that's the reason the Supreme Court might overturn this decision...?  It'd generate a lot of debate but maybe some confusion too?  I'm hoping the Court will leave the landmark case alone....

I've Studied Some Theology

A visiting speaker at my church told a story that many years ago his mother had been young and single when she got pregnant with him.  A different family member had attempted to do their own abortion shortly before and they ended up losing their life.  The family and extended family were naturally concerned; and they prayed special prayers over this future speaker while he was in the womb.  He came to have some hardships during his childhood but  then became very successful in life.

Should we draw a conclusion from the above story that abortion is bad and life is good?  I'm happy this speaker became successful and I don't begrudge him anything.  But it could be said that if the family member had had access to safe, legal, and affordable abortion, they probably wouldn't have died!?

Have received a letter and some materials from my church headquarters regarding their views on abortion.  I'm concerned because most, if not all, of our church administrators everywhere are male.  It's a male-dominated culture, at this point  The Bible is such a complex book that it's not too difficult to pick and choose, whether deliberately or not, what appeals to us about a particular topic and to ignore or misunderstand the rest....  (I've studied some theology in the past and I'm not completely ignorant or incompetent in these matters.)

Some Middle-Class Christians...

It seems hard for some middle-class Christians to accept the concept of abortion.  They may not know that some prospective mothers and fathers may suffer from addictions, co-dependency, abuse or abusiveness, mental health problems, lack of education and job skills, poverty, being adopted themselves [and not adjusting well to it], or other problems....  Some problems may be short-term while others can often be long-term and even generational.

Pre-natal care and influences are important, and adoption isn't a simple matter, in my opinion.  Children can inherit negative tendencies from their parents, for one thing.  If the birth parents weren't functional enough, for whatever reason, there's no assurance their children will do better....  I've seen a lot of adopted people in my lifetime and I'd say about 50% of them have done well, while the others didn't do as well or had serious problems.

Just a few things to think about....

Life Extends Beyond Baby-hood

It seems to me the women, and some men, who oppose abortion are being naive and sentimental about pregnancy....  Also, some men who are very vocal may be on an ego trip....  In my opinion, the topic of abortion--up to the stage of viability of the fetus--is primarily a women's health and wellness issue....  I don't believe men should have a lot to say against this matter at all....  Women who have never had children, or who have had miscarriages, may not be the best advisors in this question either....  These women may be consciously or unconsciously jealous of other women's pregnancies...?   

If opponents of abortion have had a privileged life, they should be thankful; but they should realize that not everyone has the best life....  If people have steady employment, with reasonable pay; have a stable family; and have good health--physically and mentally, these are real advantages.  

A child can inherit traits from the mother or father, and pre-natal influences are important.  If a mother can go through a pregnancy healthfully, with a good mental attitude, I think that's necessary for the best foundation for the child....  But if she's distressed about the pregnancy for any reason, it's not going to be helpful...and even adoption might not be a good answer....  

Otherwise, I believe child-rearing is approximately a 20-year commitment...!  What are the assets of the mother, or parents...?  It's not just about being charmed by the thought of a cute, little baby...!  Life extends far beyond baby-hood.  

Recently, I learned about an organization called Catholics for Choice.  They say they represent the 60% of Catholics in the USA who support the right of abortion.  They also have concerns for women around the world, many who are poor and disadvantaged, who may or may not be helped by American government aid....  As the different political parties come into power in the United States, the funding is affected....  That's what I understand.  I appreciate the compassion of this organization above.  

Right now, the U.S. Supreme Court is working on a major abortion case....  I tried to read about it the other day but wasn't exactly clear on what the issues are...?  Will continue to study and to follow this matter....

Being Positive in a Troubled World

The police in the special police project have been trying to improve our society by helping with the LGBTQ needs, and with some reasonable abortion rights--to eliminate hostile prejudice--if possible.  I believe the police have been and are succeeding to some degree....  However, when we follow the world news it's evident there are a lot of problems.  Ukraine/Russia is the biggest story right now but there are troubles of many kinds at different times....

At my eighth-grade graduation service, long ago, some girls and I were asked to sing a song called "Let There Be Peace on Earth"--and "let it begin with me." [The song is available on YouTube, by various performers.]  This song came back to me recently.  We can't change everything but we can make choices about what we're going to do.  We can choose to help, in some way, rather than causing harm....  We can help our little corner of the world...or we can even contribute to people further away...!

"Let it begin with me!"

My Pamphlet--new amendment

 Here is a new page for the pamphlet I had written earlier....  The previous page of the pamphlet was posted on January 25, 2022.

I Was Railroaded...

Would like to say that I was railroaded to help with the special police project....  My dictionary says that one of the definitions of "railroad" is to get rid of, especially by sending to prison on a false charge....  The police didn't really want to get rid of me and they didn't actually keep me in prison for long...but they wanted to detain me--by various means--in order for me to help them....  This is a smaller group of mostly gay police, and the majority of police don't know about it or don't believe me yet!

The criminal concerns weren't completely untrue but in my opinion they were trivial....  It's been said the courts don't usually prosecute trivial matters.  And I took chances with the criminal matter only because I was trying to HELP the situation--I took a chance and lost....  The complainant was upset with me because of the former landlord/tenant matter, and I didn't realize how upset he was...!  [I believe--] He had his own ideas about the police project, which he had been led to believe, but I believe the police were actually using him and his participation....  

Besides working on the special project, I've had a lot of time for personal growth and spiritual growth....  The time hasn't been lost, even though most people around me don't know what's going on and my relationships have had some strain....  The police  involved have kept me at arm's length, for different reasons....  

My 4-part blog has been continuing since 2009....   I've said a lot about the police, and of course they could've shut me down if they really wanted to....  Some police have made civilized attempts to do that but I've been able to explain that the blog is helpful and necessary....  It's helpful for some purposes....  

One of these days--maybe soon--I hope that all the police and the public and myself will be on the same page with this matter...!  

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Update for New Readers

My former landlord/tenant matter and all that it involved was very complicated....  The Province of Ontario and I both made mistakes; and I'm sorry for my part, and have made amends as far as possible....  Some stories circulating were true but some were not....

It's still controversial about what the police are doing because they haven't made anything public yet....  They've been a smaller group--but over a wide area--who are mostly gay or bi-sexual....  I believe they'll go public when they're ready, God willing.

In the sidebar of this blog, there's a list of Labels and an Archive.  People can choose if they'd like to read more....

NOTE ADDED ON April 22, 2022:  It might sound sensational or outrageous to say that the police in the special project for LGBTQs have been involved with film/TV people....  Okay....  I'll let these police tell their story, along with some firefighter friends, when they're ready to....

NOTE ADDED ON June 10, 2022:  Will state briefly that the police in the special project have mostly worked for LGBTQ+ rights, along with their civilian associates, but they've also had an interest in showing some support for abortion rights.

There is No War Here

Would like to apologize for something I said within the past few months when I was talking to some police....  I said the special police project had been a war against discrimination against the LGBTQs--and I was concerned the war was still continuing....  And I shouldn't have said "a war."--I should've said it was SOMETHING "like a war."  But it's not a war.  No.  Please, let's understand.

As I've written in this blog, I've been in contact with my church's headquarters in the USA....  They have a team of lawyers working for them.  I have a limited amount of time to spend on the Internet at the public library, and I've read things here and there....   I've also said before that I think it's preferable for my church, and other conservative Christians, to agree to things voluntarily than to have practices forced on them....  And I was concerned about some Canadian lawmakers getting ideas from the Americans....

Anyway, the police and their associates in the special project have been allowed to be "flexible" with the laws...and I, myself, have been the main "hostage."  I've had some freedom and my life hasn't been all bad (sometimes it's been quite good--very good even)....  Police have said they have money for me....  Except for possible legal problems for churches in North America--and I'm trying to avoid them--I don't believe anything bad is going to happen.  "All is well"--like a motivational speaker said.  Nobody else is going to suffer; and other countries won't be forced to cooperate.

My health has been under stress, but police have said my son should get my money if anything happens to me.  I'd be satisfied with that.  I'm glad I've had something to contribute to society....  I've been the "hostage" and I can say that!

Sorry if my past words frightened anyone.  I didn't mean for that to happen.  And I'll be more careful with what I say from now on.

Information from 2013...

Have had time for a quick look on the Internet today....  It seems the fifth edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of the American Psychiatric Association was supposed to be printed in 2013.  It was to contain eight conditions of "paraphilic disorders"--unusual sexual interests.  The conditions were to be listed if there was distress caused to the patient themselves, or if there was a threat to others in society....  [A threat to their well-being in any way.]  Otherwise, the APA said most people with unusual sexual interests don't have a mental disorder.

The APA website stated that the fifth edition Manual had taken 14 years to process, if I understood correctly.....  So, the previous one was printed in 1999?  Anyway, maybe some Christians need to update their information...from 2013, if not before...?

They've Been Smart People, but Misinformed...

There have been prominent Christian leaders and politicians--both within my church and elsewhere--during the past 10 years, who have spoken publicly to associate homosexuality or gay marriage with bestiality and polygamy....  I don't think this was fair....  [The more I've looked into it, the more I've found out....  But I don't want to name any names.]  Anybody can make a mistake, and I believe we need better information to come out now...!  [Even smart people make mistakes.] 

To Recap

Would like to recap from my previous post that if a gay couple are able to function in society--to hold a job and be responsible citizens--and they're not hurting anybody, they're not suffering from any "mental illness."  I believe it's completely reasonable to say that homosexuality is not a psychiatric illness.  The other "disorders" which were mentioned, are hurting others...and it's reasonable to say that they're a problem....  

My own circumstances have been unusual; and I've been encouraged to help gays and transsexuals...and my earnings may depend on it....  I could be biased, in other words...but I sincerely believe that I've been writing the truth....  I don't say things if I don't mean them.  

Am Just Wondering...?

 A number of decades ago, there was a quotation from somewhere which associated pedophilia, bestiality, polygamy, and homosexuality with each other....  Am not sure where this quotation came from but I've heard different people referring to it within the past 10 years, or so....  

Would like to ask if these comparisons are fair???  I think bestiality and polygamy aren't so relevant; and there may be a few gays who are pedophiles but there are also heterosexual men who are pedophiles....  I think it's an irrational fear to say that all gays may be pedophiles--or even to raise that suggestion...!

A while ago, I heard of a story--maybe from the 1960s I think?--where a pastor found out a church member was a homosexual.  And the pastor announced during the church services that so-and-so was a homosexual, and people should beware and keep their children away from him.  I think that was an awful thing to happen!  The pastor was quite ignorant about homosexuality, at the time....  But it has taken our society time to understand these matters....

Have read on the Internet that the American Psychiatric Association used to list 30 categories of sexual orientation in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual, including pedophilia, masochism, sadism, and zoophilia (bestiality).  But these kinds of attractions have since been re-classified as mental disorders....  It was in the 1970s, I believe, when homosexuality was no longer seen as a psychiatric illness; and I believe that's correct....  There may be some psychological issues, as I've written before, but they're not mental illness....  

The above kinds of ideas have developed in a time of ignorance and misinformation....  I hope that people can be sensible; and make an effort to understand and be fair....  Some individuals may need to search their minds and their memories to see where their views have come from...?  Am just wondering...?  [Not to accuse any specific parties....]

A Letter Received

Would like to report that I received a nice letter from my church headquarters in the USA yesterday.  It was written a few weeks earlier and took time to travel.  The letter was written by an assistant of the president of the world headquarters.  The person remarked that they appreciated something about my first letter that I sent.  They didn't agree with everything but they were kind....  

This letter was apparently written before my third letter was sent....  I don't know if they'll still send another response, or not...?  Anyway, I was happy to receive this letter.  If I get more support from the police, I may be able to contact the church again with further discussion about the discrimination issues...?

Some Words of Encouragement

As I wrote recently in this blog, gay marriage is a relatively new concept in our world; and it may take the conservative Christians some time to get adjusted...?  I just read an article in a church magazine which was written by a lawyer who practices human rights and constitutional law in Canada.  He said that any individual who has SINCERE beliefs of a religious nature--whether right or wrong--is entitled to defend their position in the courts....  In the USA, the Supreme Court defended the right of the Christian cake baker not to sell a wedding cake to a gay couple....  (Even though it seems  that baker's legal problems aren't over...and I feel sorry for him...but I don't sympathize with his position....) 

If some gay people have to face negative views from Christians, I'd like to share a few Bible verses and comments to encourage them....

Regarding the difference between civil matters and religious matters, Jesus said, "Render therefore unto Caesar the things which are Caesar's; and unto God the things that are God's."  Matthew 22:21, King James Version.  Gay marriage is accepted as legal, and I think Christians should accept it as such--outside of the conservative churches.  Sometimes the things that God allows aren't His ideal will, but He allows them for different reasons....

God has an ultimate plan for this earth, I believe, but sometimes people are struggling just to cope with the here and now [people need to feel ACCEPTED, first of all...].  If we can be thankful for all our blessings and do the very best we know, we can make progress....  We'll increase our capacity for success....

Some comforting words are:  "The Lord is gracious, and full of compassion; slow to anger, and of great mercy.  The Lord is good to all: and his tender mercies are over all his works."  Psalm 145:8,9.  It doesn't say that gays and transsexuals are excluded!

Finally, many people know that Romans, chapter 1, talks against homosexuality....  But the beginning of the very next chapter emphasizes that we shouldn't judge each other...!  And God wants to help us with all our problems--"The Lord is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth."  Psalm 145:18.  "...God is love."  l John 4:8.  God loves everyone, including the LGBTQ+...!

Have Made an Effort to Communicate

Earlier this month, I sent one more letter to my church headquarters in the USA [with delivery confirmation]....  The letter was about gay rights and gay marriage....  The American government is currently trying to pass a federal anti-discrimination law; and some Christians are trying to reduce the benefits, according to what they see as religious rights....  I don't know if or when my letter may help...?  At least I've made an effort to communicate my views to the church; and some local officials gave me some support....  I believe I've done what I can....  The church headquarters will have to "take it, or leave it," and I'll continue writing a little more in this blog to help gays....

WHAT Is Informing the Conscience?

If a Christian person wants to say that their conscience would be significantly offended or violated by serving or helping a gay person or married gay person, I think the Christian should examine WHAT is informing their conscience...!?--Is it possible their conscience wants to act on prejudice or homophobia...?  I believe people need to have a proper understanding of gays and their legitimate needs before they can answer these questions...?  Maybe that's the problem--that they don't have enough credible information? 

Dictionary.com says one of the meanings of "prejudice" is:  "an unfavorable opinion or feeling formed beforehand or without knowledge, thought, or reason."  Conservative Christians believe that the practise of homosexuality is a sin...but that's not the only consideration or the only information we need, I'd say...!  I think it's harsh to say that sin is sin, and to stop there....  The Bible says "God is love," and we need to consider all the angles....

From what I've seen and heard, it seems many conservative Christians are speaking or acting on uninformed prejudice against homosexuality....  

We Discussed the Word "Mercy"

One of my favourite passages in the Bible is Proverbs 3:3,4--"Let not mercy and truth forsake thee...so shalt thou find favour and good understanding in the sight of God and man."  King James Version.  In this case, I believe "truth" means "justice."  My church generally believes that God blends mercy and justice in His dealings with people....  Another Bible verse says, "...Mercy rejoiceth against judgment," James 2:13.  Mercy is very important.... 

To use an example from the police, if they'd give out traffic tickets for every single speeding violation, that'd be justice.  But sometimes police are kind and merciful, and don't give the tickets--especially if there's a good reason....  In the case of conservative Christians with homosexual people, it seems to me they want justice, justice, justice!  They haven't found a lot of room for mercy, so far....

When I was preparing my church pamphlet in 2014, some church members and I were discussing the word "mercy."  I decided I liked the word; and someone shared one of their favourite Bible verses--"...What doth the Lord require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God?"  Micah 6:8.

Also in the Bible, the book of Romans, chapter 13, talks about how Christians should submit to laws and governments, and to social customs and requirements....  It's only in the case of a direct violation of conscience that we should refuse....  Conservative Christians have wanted "religious rights," and have even won in the Supreme Court of the United States....  But I think there might be more to this matter than Christians have realized...?

A New Concept for the World...and Christians

Within the past 10-20 years or so, gay marriage is a new concept in our society which the world has never before been confronted with, as far as I know....  [There were some unsuccessful attempts made a few decades earlier....]  I believe that every conservative Christian who has a problem with "gay rights" needs to ask themselves what "homophobia" means...?  They should take this matter seriously.  Also, if the Christians want to be helpful and not hurtful, they should seek credible information about the LGBTQs--not news stories and photos of outlandish people and gay pride parades--and understand what the legitimate needs of these people are...?  Will be discussing more about these issues later...but I believe that too many conservative Christians have a flawed view of Christianity regarding homosexuality; and they have a misguided sense of their duty to God and society....  The Christians need to have a breakthrough, in my opinion....  [Some non-Christian people may be prejudiced or homophobic, as well.]

My Church Pamphlet--current update

 

Another Letter Sent

Have written to my church's headquarters about abortion; and the post office confirmed the letter was received a couple of weeks ago....

We Need Reliable Information...

In yesterday's post, I was trying to be tactful and didn't spell everything out....  And I'd actually be a little afraid to say everything I could....  If there aren't enough conflicts already, I don't want to stir up new ones....  

There was a TV evangelist from my church whom I saw about five years ago....  He was expressing some discomfort with gays and gay marriage....  He didn't try to cover it up with any religious reasoning....  I appreciate his honesty....  

A family member once commented to me about a gay pride parade....  Myself, I've seen bald, husky, middle-aged gay men dancing with little pink bows on their heads in a gay pride parade....  It's possible some other Christians are reacting to this kind of thing...?  Or to other outlandish-looking gay people...?  But these aren't typical of all gays, I don't believe....  And during their pride week, they have a lot of workshops and programs, I've heard, and the parade is only a small part of it--although it's more public....  In their daily lives, I believe the gays have to more or less conform to society; and the parade and pride week may be a special time for them to relax and goof around...?  I don't know...?  Anyway, I also met a young man who was dressed as a "princess" at a health clinic one day....  He had a few friends with him and I overheard some conversation....  This man actually sounded like quite an intelligent person...!  So, we can't always judge by the appearance--not for gays or others...!  

A few years after my landlord/tenant matter, I found a comprehensive article about gays in our local, community newspaper....  I read it and found the information to be quite serious....  A few more years later, the big city newspaper nearby published a comprehensive article....  This kind of information is a lot more realistic than just observing a few gay people here and there, in my opinion...!  That's why I recommend for Christian people--especially the church leaders and TV personalities--to read my pamphlet, in this blog, or to find their own information....  I've done research on the Internet also and found helpful information....

Well, I'm trying to help people think and maybe to generate some discussion....

Voluntary Cooperation Is Better...

Have been working on getting my church--and other conservative churches if possible--to understand the needs of the LGBTQs better....  I think it's much more preferable to have people cooperate voluntarily than to have rules forced on them by governments....  

The mission of conservative Christian churches is to preach the gospel.  I wonder if the ministers, and some TV personalities, have considered if they really WANT to preach the gospel to the LGBTQs...?  Or do they hope things will happen by themselves...?  

Have heard that Christian churches need to be an influence for good in society and to point out sin, etc....  Is this really true in the case of the LGBTQ community...?  Or are the Christians reacting out of a personal squeamishness regarding the group and their issues...?  

A long time ago, I read a booklet called "Homosexuality:  An Open Door?," by a man named Colin Cook.  It was published by a late TV evangelist named George Vandeman and his It Is Written ministry.  I don't recall all the details in the book but I know that it helped to strengthen my heterosexuality.  Some other people told me they appreciated reading the book, also.  At this time, I don't know if this booklet is available in print any longer...?  It'd be nice to have some copies available....  Mr. Cook, himself, had a complicated history...and he'd be quite elderly now, if he's still alive...?  But I believe he did something good by writing this booklet.

Was reading a book from my church last night and came across some counsel to pastors....  The book said pastors should mingle with the people whom they hope to benefit, and to become acquainted with their needs....  How many Christian pastors and TV personalities have mingled with the LGBTQs?  There are some gays and others who may already have an interest in my church...and there are others out in the public who aren't aware of my church....  Two groups....  Would the pastors and TV people LIKE to have some sensible information?  What I can offer is that they could read the pamphlet I wrote for my church....  Even if they'd read the first page, I believe they'd benefit....  My pamphlet is posted in this blog--November 1, 2021....  The pamphlet itself was printed in 2014.  And if people can find something better somewhere, that's fine too.

May God bless us.