Self-Interest and Theatrics

In my Waterlily Story III blog, I wrote earlier that the special police project for LGBTQs was a humanitarian project....  However, I also wrote there was money being earned; and that the police and their firefighter friends were connected to Hollywood....  Unless something significant happens within the next few days, I'm going to have to say that the project is being mismanaged and that the parties are looking out for self-interest and a theatrical show....  The humanitarian concerns have taken a back seat, if they're there at all...?

Some parties who are more sensible haven't been willing to come forward so far, for some reason, although all of them might not be allowed to, at this time?  Some of them make discreet comments to me; and I have contact on Facebook and elsewhere....

It is said that "A chain is no stronger than its weakest link," but in this case the chain itself is looking pretty bad, for the most part?  I feel sorry to see this.  Am I rushing things?  I know I've worked pretty hard, in the past six months or so--and I've been getting exhausted from my previous work--and we should be ready to go public....  

My Summary--continued

In case any of my church people need me to clarify about what I said about the Bible, I'll do that.  I do believe in the Bible, myself, first of all.  God created the Earth, and a male and a female--and He said His work was very good....  Then afterwards, sin came into the world....

In Romans 9:20, it talks about complaining against God....  I don't completely understand the situation but it's some kind of spiritual reasoning, it seems....  In Galatians 3:28, it says:  "There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female:  for ye are all one in Christ Jesus."  It doesn't really mean that male and female are done away with, but it's just emphasizing we should all live for God....  Is that fair to say?  But the distinctions of life don't really matter as much, after Jesus came to the earth and died for us.  Can I say that?  [Did the apostle Paul also say that it was good to be single, if possible, as he was?  Concentrate on serving the Lord.]

Before a Christian person accepts a sex change, I believe they should explore all their other options....  And as I said, parents could talk to their under-age children....  If people still can't find help and they want to insist that they belong to another gender, who am I to object?  [And parents could assist their child in dealing with the professionals....]  The advice of experts is that if the change begins earlier in life, it works better....  So, if the family would accept this matter and show as much support as they can after the change....  Do their best with what's available....  

[For the record, I'm glad I'm a woman and had a child.  It was a miraculous thing and a wonderful experience....  My romantic life has been kind of in shambles, in the past 20 years and more; but I had love before then....  There's the love of family and friends, also.  And I'm trying to get my work accomplished, of course--resolving the special police project--which isn't only my work.]

My Summary of Transgender Issues

My church allows transgender people into church membership if they're willing to abide by the moral standards--which means no sexual activities outside of marriage, and only heterosexual marriage is allowed.  I don't wish to debate anything further with my church.

Myself, I've seen that the Bible says this and that, and it can be used to support various views.  Generally, my church believes we should take the full Bible in context...but even then it's possible to get some support for non-binary and maybe transgender people, in my opinion....  Anyway, the public and even many Christians don't care so much about the Bible any more....

The human rights laws refer to "human dignity;" and I believe we should treat the trans and non-binary people with this quality.  We're all human beings and everyone wants to be treated with fairness and decency.

Also, I can make choices for my own life but can't choose for anyone else--not even if I had an under-aged child or children at home....  

The helping professions, like medical people and social workers, have sometimes been accused of promoting transgender options aggressively for a monetary interest.  It's increased business for them!?  But I wish they would try to work with what is best for each of their patients or clients; and every person needs to make an effort to stand up for themselves and their interests.  Parents should also work with their under-age children, as far as possible.  

[Have read or heard that men are generally left-brain oriented, which gives them an emphasis in logical reasoning; and it's their natural tendency to want to accomplish things--it's their main priority, unless they make a conscious effort to think differently.  And women are generally right-brain oriented, which has a tendency to make them emotional-thinkers; and their first focus is on relationships, including family....  It used to be that most women stayed home to raise the family while the husband and father went to work.  Now, a lot of women go to work also, and that's good and often necessary...but I think it makes the distinctions between men and women less clear...!?  I believe we'll continue to see non-binary and perhaps transgender people in our society.  Some non-binary people want to say they're superior to males and females but I don't think that's fair either.  We need to learn how to get along together.]

Not For Forcing Change, But To Show Support...

Was just reading that the American Psychological Association had earlier disapproved of attempts to change anyone's sexual orientation, and more recently disapproved of attempts to change anyone's gender identity....  What I was referring to in my blog was the opportunity for parents to talk to their under-age children and youths at home....  Not for demanding change but just for showing support and asking to know what the issues are...?  Perhaps the children wouldn't all be able to explain but I believe some of them could....  If some issues could get resolved, it'd be preferable.  Anything is worth a try, in my opinion!

[For example, one transgender man said that when he was little, his mother used to make him wear dresses which had scratchy tags on them.  He/she was physically uncomfortable!  And I've heard of a girl who wore "scratchy tights."  We should be able to find comfortable clothing for different occasions....  Of course, there may be a little more than this in transgender issues, but it might start with small things, for all we know!?]

 

Will This Be Our Year...?

If I haven't said so clearly enough in my recent posts, I've been hoping for and working on a resolution to the special police project in the near future....  Some police wanted to do a public news story at a Halloween time--can we make this our year??? 

If not, I'm not sure I'll continue helping the police....  I might have to take a stand, to say we NEED to go public, and to quit....  I don't believe there's any reason why we need to work in secret any longer...!?  Our society has evolved enough....  

How Will Some Police Respond?

If some police are prejudiced about transgender issues, I hope they can recognize that we have some choices with our own lives, and to some degree our families....  I'm sorry that anybody has to feel gender confusion and go through struggles....  But it happens.  And I hope the police will recognize that they also have a choice about how they're going to respond to other people...!?  Do we need to continue debating about this...if so, I'd rather not participate any longer.  We haven't discussed much about transgender issues but now it's out in the open.  And I'll write a little more separately....

Can We Get Past Some Prejudice?--Part 2

Continued from part 1, below.

The last I heard, the schools in the province of Ontario were following a philosophy called "humanism," which states that anything a human being--like a young student--can imagine or do is okay as long as it isn't hurtful to another person....  Something like that?  So, if I may say, all the transgender issues are acceptable to the public schools....  I've heard the schools are teaching about this subject within their sex education classes....  I don't think we can get away from it, if we want to...except maybe we can remove our children from these classes, which probably don't happen frequently within a school year?  Otherwise, I've read the American psychologists are encouraging each other to do public advocacy about transgender issues....  It may be the same in Canada, and other places?  This is a growing phenomenon.

In the 1990s, a psychologist named John Gray published a book called "Men are From Mars, Women are From Venus."  I believe I read the book at the time, although I don't remember everything.  Dr. Gray was bringing out some characteristics that might be typical for many men and women, and it's sometimes hard to understand each other...!  Afterwards, some other experts put Gray down and said we're all human beings, with the same needs and interests....  I think the experts were partly right, but Dr. Gray was partly right also--and I believe he meant to use some humour!?  Anyway, if we want to, I believe it's possible to study and understand human behaviour better....  There's information available, from many sources.  No one is forced to study, however, and if people are satisfied to go along with society they can do that....  As far as transgender issues go, people are taking them seriously....  

In Canada, we're starting to have some problems with our health care system, partly due to the pandemic but not completely.  As long as people have money--from somewhere--and have the procedures available, they can do sex changes....  And I believe it's best to accept these people and their wishes....  Like I've said, we can do something to look out for our own families, if we wish to....  Otherwise, it's good to be respectful.  

If some police could get past their own prejudice, it would help our project....  And I don't want to continue writing very much more, if I can help it?  The police can work on their own....  Will write separately about my hopes for this year....

Can We Get Past Some Prejudice...?

There was a trans woman I saw a few years ago in several different locations, and I overheard her talking to other people.  Some of her comments about her sex change were boastful and flippant.  I have to say she didn't give me a good impression of transgender people...but I knew they weren't all like that.  A little later, I came in contact with another trans woman; and this individual has seemed to be a happy, friendly, and confident person.  She seems to be doing very well....  I don't know if some of the drag queens have shows on TV?  I've seen something in the newspapers, in passing, but haven't had TV service at my home for some time....  There may be some police who are involved in the police project, who themselves are prejudiced against transgender people?--I've seen evidence to suggest that, if I'm not mistaken.  But I think it makes a difference about what information a person has received about trans people...?

When I was looking up the World Professional Association for Transgender Health/WPATH a few days ago, I thought I saw the credentials of some of the members...but I can't find the same information today.  But I'm sure many of the members are medical doctors and psychologists; and some, if not all, are transgender.  I was glad to see that they had gotten good educations and were successful in life....  They were also helping other transgender people.  

Have read that WPATH recommends that when hormone therapy is started earlier in life, rather than later, a transition is more successful....  [And unfortunately, too many trans people don't do well.]  There was a case in the courts in Canada, where divorcing parents disagreed about hormone therapy for their under-aged teen, and the one who disagreed lost his case!  Should other parents be afraid that their child may be given hormone therapy without their consent?  If people are concerned about this, I recommend that they take any significant problems with gender dissatisfaction in their child seriously.  Don't ignore it!  And I would want to talk to my child in a very kind, patient and intelligent way--to know what the problem is and what could perhaps be done?  I wouldn't want to be demanding and controlling....  Some transgender people maybe would've had a hard time explaining what the problem was--they felt trapped in a gender they didn't want...?  It may not be easy but I believe it'd be worth a try!  Maybe a problem could be resolved without treatment?

Continued in Part 2.

Some Transgender Issues--not just from police

Some people seem to have been nervous of what the police were doing for transgender rights...?  But I have to say the police don't seem to have done all that much, from what I can see...but there are psychologists, health professionals, and social workers supporting people; and also the public schools are educating children and youths about sex education and gender issues....  

Transgender issues seem to go all around the world, and there's an organization called "World Professional Association for Transgender Health"/WPATH.  It was founded in 1979 and is non-profit.

Someone expressed a concern to me that children--at least in our Canadian province of British Columbia so far--can start hormone therapy without the consent of their parents....  I did a little research and found the youths get detailed assessments done; and there would be a long and intense pattern of gender problems....  They don't just start therapy on a whim, or a passing phase, that a young person might be going through....  The young person is supposed to be informed of all the pros and cons...and give some kind of reasonable consent....  And in B.C., it seems the government is following advice from the WPATH.  I read briefly the other day that they have some competent professional people behind them....  

If we don't like transgender activities, I think we can still respect the choices of others....  We can live our own genders as we like, but we have to respect others.  That's how I see it.

[Right now, I'm just passing some time and waiting for parties in the special police project to consider if they can be ready with a public announcement at this Halloween...?] 

What Does American Psychology Say About Homosexuality?

Have done a little research on the American Psychological Association and their views on homosexuality [and transgender people].  Was interested to see what they had to say?  It seems they've mostly supported the American Psychiatric Association, from what I could see--no major differences.  [From a quick study.]  

The trans laws have been going back and forth within the past seven or eight years, it seems.  Some people say it's good for discussion....  

There was an article I found from 2011, written by a Ph.D. person and posted on a reputable American website--although they didn't necessarily support the views [PMC--PubMed Central].  This article promoted the idea of "developmental-psychological causation" of homosexuality, which was a point that came up in 1998 in my legal matters....  However, it seems to be an unpopular view in the world....  [I understand that and don't wish to debate it.]

If some of the police want to continue working on the LGBTQ rights, I'm sure they'd have enough work to do--for some time....  Points could be debated all over the place, I think?  And I don't believe I need to be caught up in it endlessly.... 

These are just a few comments.

Prominent Psychiatrist--continued

Have done a double-check of my research.  According to the last diagnostic manual of psychiatrists, number 5, in 2013, homosexuality isn't considered to be any kind of a disorder at all, as far as I understand.  Therefore, psychiatrists wouldn't deal with it....  A psychiatrist who recently retired would've gone through a lot of changes in his profession's views on it...!  And psychology is the field that studies human behaviour as it relates to emotions, I believe--the mind and the emotions, rather than the mind and mental illnesses.  

The prominent psychiatrist whom I've been referring to may or may not know that I've been on false mental health charges....  Some police have been covering up the fact that they've worked with Hollywood in their special project for LGBTQs...but others say I'm imagining things....  [I have the feeling that this psychiatrist knows I'm not?]

Well, life is complicated!  

Personal Memories--continued

My parents were immigrants from Europe who came here shortly before I was born.  They had to learn a new language, although they might've had a little training in it earlier.  They were also newly married and my mom went to college to get a job skill.  My mom was somewhat feminine, but not VERY feminine, I'd say.--And she didn't have time to dress up my sisters and me with a lot of frills.  She did buy or make us some "crinolines" one time, which were in style....  But I haven't been a frilly girl.  And that's okay, in my opinion.  I like to dress up when I can, but not all the time.  In our Canadian climate, we also have to be warm in the winter....  If I would've had more money in the past while, I would've dressed better--but you do what you can....  I don't want to start explaining too many things but I suppose I have time in this month now, and if I haven't already explained something....  

Some Personal Memories...

When I first started school in Kindergarten, a long time ago, my mother used to walk me to school.  There was some kind of a large foghorn--or something--on top of one of the buildings along the way.  My mother told me it reminded her of World War II, which she lived through as a teenager--running to bomb shelters; and it made her nervous. I got a bad impression of war and never wanted to be a boy, who might have to go to war!  [And these days, even some girls might be forced to go.]

When I was young, I usually had a crush on a boy....  There were different boys at different times, and I mostly admired them from a distance.  I was usually too shy to talk to them.  In my teens, I had a few boyfriends....  When I met my husband-to-be, I felt more feminine at that time because he was quite masculine--he liked fishing, hunting, and trapping or live trapping....  It's fun to dress up sometimes but I don't like to take a lot of time to fuss with my appearance on a daily basis--I do what's necessary, more or less.  [And I'm not getting any younger!]

While I've been working on this police project, I've been pretty tied up!  Dating has been a very narrow option for me, unfortunately....  They say you get what you can pay for in dating, if you're honest, and I haven't been able to afford much!  Anyway, I've been busy...the work has provided me some entertainment, and I've even been able to connect better with my now late, ex-husband, as surprising as that may sound....  [Earlier, I said he inspired me in a spiritual way and that was true, but he was also very charming and intelligent which I appreciated.  I liked--or loved--his personality!  And his appearance appealed to me.  It was just that he had a drinking problem...and there were issues with the police project, which he wasn't able to tell me everything about at the time....  It's too bad I wasn't a strong enough person at the time, myself, to deal with everything,]

My Humble Opinions About a Prominent Psychiatrist

There has been a certain RCMP division HQ which has been unusually quiet as I've been discussing concluding the special police project....  Also, I heard a hint a while ago about a prominent psychiatrist who had been hired to give advice in this project....  It was only a hint and I wasn't sure what was going on...?  Now, I have to look at this psychiatrist--who had officially retired approximately ten years ago...(officially, but not necessarily in fact?).

When I read about this man's employment a long time ago, I knew he must be a very intelligent person--maybe a genius?  However, I purchased and read a book called "Emotional Intelligence" by Daniel Goleman.  The author states that people who are very intelligent too often don't do as well with their emotions.--High IQ, low EQ.--I know of three other men who this seems to apply to; and I've been somewhat guilty myself, over the years.

Anyway, I've also dealt with a lot of other psychiatrists and I've noticed they don't seem to understand "psychology" as well as psychiatry.  After all, psychology is a different branch of study and there are psychologists who specialize in it.  (I stated in my pamphlet a long time ago that I believed homosexuality was related more to psychological issues than to psychiatry.)

Besides that, I heard that the prominent psychiatrist above was GIVEN the idea that I was gay when he first began with the police project.  Maybe he took it very seriously, but he never spoke directly to me or examined me; and the people who informed him never did either!  I don't know if this psychiatrist was directed to read all that I wrote in my blogs and elsewhere?--I doubt it.  But if he did, he missed something.

To recap, psychiatrists don't know as much about psychology--which deals with the emotional life; intelligent people may be weaker in their emotional lives; and the prominent psychiatrist has never even interviewed or examined me directly.

According to my research, the American psychiatrists deal with homosexual patients if they feel distress about their sexual orientation or if they are forensic cases--where a criminal law was broken.  I was a forensic case at the beginning because I was falsely accused--which some people know.  My case also involved a gay landlord, and I've acknowledged I made mistakes and have apologized--with charitable cash contributions; and I've blogged about it extensively, and sufficiently, in my opinion.  And I feel no distress about my sexual orientation [only about being harassed and denied my pay].

 

I Have a "Plan B"

Last spring and early summer, I didn't think the police project was going to be ready to go public by this fall--a Halloween time has been the anticipated time....  But the police and their supporters were motivating me...we were working pretty hard...and now I'm totally ready to see the news conference....  I believe it's the best option.--And that's my Plan A.

There seem to have been at least three or four different parties who were told they could be in charge of the special police project, and these people presumably also wanted to be the spokespeople at the conclusion....  Some of the parties didn't, and don't, even know about each other....  It's my luck that I was informed....  But we have to understand that not everyone can be in charge.  It's not possible!  Also, the police in my area get very good pay, and I have reason to believe a few of the civilian supporters receive pay from the police; and unfortunately these people have no incentive to wrap things up...!  It's not like some of us who had wanted to find a job and get paid--make a living--and this thing turned out to be a lot more than we expected!  Sure, at times there were indications that God wanted me to work on this project...but I also had some mistaken facts, sometimes....  

Some of the police and civilian supporters had also wanted to make some extra money through the police project...and that was fair if they were made reasonable promises....  It WAS one of the goals at the beginning, to make money...!  I believe the police have a responsibility to look out for the well-being of their civilian supporters, to some degree--especially myself, who has been very heavily involved--and I was asked to be, directly or indirectly.  

Just recently, I turned an official retirement age.  It's very good if some people are willing and able to work beyond their retirement age...but I haven't had a normal work history....  This hasn't been a normal business, for me....  And the way things are going, the police could continue on for an indefinite number of years....  There's no end in sight!  They can try to do good, yes, but they need a plan if they're asking civilians to be involved and are holding up funds that were promised....  

Would like to say that if the police don't go public by this Halloween, I'm going to take a stand and quit working for them.  I believe the public also has a right to know what's going on.  [Not that I'm going to tell them.]  There's no need to work in secret any longer, in my opinion.  

If there's no news conference now and I quit working, my life will be challenged, no doubt.  I have a shadow over me--with false criminal charges and false mental health charges--and I can't just carry on with something else, like someone else might.  But that's okay.  I want to take a stand--if we don't find our success by this Halloween.  I haven't had a chance to discuss it with my son yet, but based on other conversations we've had I believe he'll support me.  

The special police project had started off with good intentions, more or less, and some respectability--90 years ago!  I'd like to see them come to a respectable conclusion, rather than mucking along continually....  We need a conclusion.  Then some police could continue working openly.  That's my view, and my first wish.  And if it doesn't work out, my Plan B is to take a stand and quit working, as I said above.

Some Gender Terms

According to a little Internet research, the term "transsexual" is now under the category of "transgender."

The legal definitions of gender are:  man, woman, and non binary.  Binary means something to the effect of two categories existing, and the non binary means an alternate category.  I understand the American psychiatrists refer to transgender people as having "gender dysphoria," which means they're dissatisfied or anxious about their gender at birth and the assumed roles of that gender....  

Some other terms under transgender are:  pangender, polygender, agender and genderqueer.

It seems the world has some kind of understanding of transgender people, although more work can be done...and in my opinion, the special police project doesn't need to work on this matter discreetly.  As I said yesterday, I believe some police could work openly after a public news conference, if they wish to.

Let's Make This Our Year!??

Have been working and praying that this might be the year the special police project would hold a public news conference, to tell their story!  Myself, I don't know what other work is left to do...?  It's possible some of the police will continue to work on the issues openly, after the news story, and I think that'd be good and preferable rather than holding things up any longer....  I don't have a Plan B in mind....  The publicity is all I want to aim for, although it's not me who'll do it....  [Am trying to get the police, and their lawyers, to come together better.]  May God help us!

People Talk...

The police began their special project in times when there was extreme prejudice against gays.  Besides that, they wanted to make money from the project--and they have, even though most of it hasn't been paid out yet, as far as I know...?  Myself, I've been one woman among mostly men, although there have been more women becoming police officers.  There has been plenty of room for prejudice, even within our group; and lots of room for competition, which was specifically encouraged in the past....  And not even to mention that some firefighters have been involved, and there's been competition between the police and firefighters! 

There has been evidence that some police also lied to each other, both full lies and white lies....  It shouldn't be too surprising what they'd say about me....  Besides, there has been the element of possible improved spirituality for LGBTQs, which I mentioned briefly earlier.  The police project isn't directly about spirituality but there's a potential there; and this is a new phenomenon.  Anything new, and especially spiritual matters, are usually subject to a lot of opposition.

Whether deliberately or not, the police may lie, exaggerate, or misunderstand things about me; and sometimes they want to put pressure on me to get me to give them information--they have their interrogation techniques and strategies that they use.  Unfortunately, not all the police have been working together at all times....  Myself, I've made enough mistakes but I believe I've made corrections and amends, as far as possible....

If I may say, the apostles in the Bible times were preaching the gospel and they did nothing wrong.  But they faced lying witnesses, and Paul said in 1 Corinthians 4:13, "We are made as the filth of the world, and are the offscouring of all things unto this day."  King James Version.  [I checked a Catholic Mission Bible and it's very similar.]  An "offscouring" means matter scoured off, or anything vile or despised....

If people talked against the apostles, it's no wonder they'd talk against anyone else.  Not that I want to compare myself to the apostles exactly, but I believe there's some room for comparison....  So, let's not be surprised.

A Few Words in Support of Transsexual People

It was a surprise to me recently to hear that transsexual people, especially trans women, don't live all that long....  It seems to be worse outside of North America where they might not receive a legal status and proper ID cards, and it affects their lives significantly.  Many trans people attempt suicide and some get murdered.  They have certain health problems, including heart disease, lung cancer, and HIV-related diseases.  As far as I understand, research hasn't concluded if the hormone treatments have an effect on their health?  In Argentina, most of the transsexuals live in poverty and they resort to prostitution to get by.

If the laws and the health care systems allow people to do sex changes, we pretty much have to accept them, in my opinion.  I believe we normally should accept people where they're at, and the transsexuals shouldn't be an exception.  Their health and perhaps their living conditions would improve to some degree.