Tuesday, March 10, 2020

Notes About My Notes

When I've said I had anger towards my mother [about her separation/divorce from my dad], it wasn't something that was coming out all the time....  Most of the time, I lived further away from my mom and it was easier to get along with her from a distance....  There were also times that she was friendly and helpful to me, and I appreciated it.  And I also helped her sometimes.  We had a bit of a personality conflict, I'd say, and that made things more difficult....  The anger that I was referring to was something that was unresolved in the background....

When I was helping my mom after she got sick with cancer, I spent more time with her...and I happened to find a book called, "Mindfulness for Teen Anger."  [The "mindfulness" referred to "mindfulness meditation"--have I said that before?]  I read this book thoroughly and it really helped me.  I was pretty much able to handle my feelings and then to resolve the anger completely....  My mom and I had a peaceful time for several years or more before she died.  And I really felt better about it!  It would've been a shame to continue having problems but it didn't work out that way.

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