The Other Social Issue

Gay marriage has been a relevant social issue for a while....  Another issue, which has been agitated for some time--especially in the USA--is abortion....  When I was a child, people asked the question, "Is abortion murder?"  Am not sure if anybody has clearly answered that question yet...?  Maybe the conservative Christians want to say they have...?

Our North American society has a background in Christianity, which has been aware of the "Ten Commandments" in the Bible, which say "Thou shalt not kill."  

Is it always wrong to kill?  We have to kill some insects, rodents, and nuisance animals; and people like the police and soldiers too often have to kill in self-defense--for themselves or society....  Sometimes people kill, and it's acceptable....  The Old Testament of the Bible is also full of stories where some wicked people had to be killed, at God's command....  Of course, babies aren't wicked....  Notwithstanding that some babies could inherit evil from a parent--like the babies of rapists or addicts, perhaps--my opinion is that babies are innocent....  

During most of my adult life, I've had an interest in gardening....  Serious gardeners know that some pruning can be helpful and even necessary....  

To me, there's no question that the contents of a womb are "life."  An embryo or fetus is living....  However, they can't live outside of the mother's body until they're ready to....  If a fetus can be supported safely and healthfully on it's own--with or without the help of technology--I wouldn't justify abortion, except in the case of severe physical distress to the mother or baby....

Actually, there's a Christian expert whom I read about on the Internet who provides guidance or advice in situations where there IS physical distress during pregnancy or childbirth....  Sometimes abortion is medically necessary; and he doesn't believe in any other abortion....  But I believe that--during the early term--there may be mental/emotional issues affecting the prospects of childrearing; and the future of mother and child should be considered....  

It'd be wonderful if everyone got the proper training in appropriate sexuality--whatever their beliefs are, in family planning, and in birth control...!  But we're human, and life is complicated!  Mistakes happen....  Some people say they don't believe in abortion as a means of birth control, but I've heard abortion can be a BACK-UP when birth control fails!  Myself, I'd prefer to see mainly first-trimester abortion, and some others have agreed with that, also....  If we can AVOID abortion, that's better--by planning better--but it's an intervention that's possible, after the fact....  

One of the founders of my church wrote something to the effect that when we have excessive material possessions and don't give to help the less fortunate, it's like we're stealing from them....  The Ten Commands also say, "Thou shalt not steal...."  I believe we ARE "our brother's/sister's keeper," and there are many needy orphans and families in Africa, India, and Asia....  There's enough work to do to eliminate poverty, if it was ever possible to do so....  I don't think we need to depend on and demand that North American foster families and potential adoptive parents can always cover our unwanted pregnancies...!  I don't believe it's realistic or healthy, even though some cases may turn out all right....  [Sometimes it turns out badly....]  

The liberal people in the USA have gone to extremes in their abortion beliefs, I believe, because the conservative side was so intolerant and inflexible....  I'd like to say that abortion during the first trimester or so, is like "pruning."  Sometimes it's necessary....  May God help us with this debate!

My Letter Was Received!

Have received confirmation from the post office that my letter to the church headquarters was received nearly two weeks ago....  Am happy that it arrived safely.  While I'm waiting for a response--which may take some time especially getting past the holidays--I wanted to write about another social issue, which also affects my church and some other churches....  Will continue writing separately.

Contact By Letter...

Have decided to send a letter directly to my church's headquarters in the United States....  It's travelling by "snail mail" but there'll be delivery confirmation....  It seems this letter is needed...the church needs more encouragement than what's in my pamphlet....  (Have learned some things on the Internet.)  

In the past, I've contacted the headquarters several times, by mail and by email, and I had good results....  We'll see what happens this time...and they still may need a while--first before my letter gets read and then time to think about it...?  

It's a little hard for me to wait in the meantime...this isn't like a regular job....  Sometimes I wish I had one, but I don't know if it's possible at this point...?  Anyway, I'll try to "Let Go and Let God...."

Appealing To The Prejudiced

From what I've heard, there've been police and firefighter parties in the United States who were prejudiced against the secret police project for different reasons....  If the other police and firefighters know who they are, I'd like to ask them to encourage the prejudiced ones to read my blog, at this time.  Also, some officials at my church in the USA may be prejudiced and I'd like them to be contacted as well, if they've had regular police contacts...?  They could read and consider my pamphlet and the two posts for my church and other conservative churches....

It seems that the rest of us pretty much agree that this latest information in my blog is sensible.  If it's possible, we'd like for the prejudiced parties to support us....  If they decide not to support us, we'll probably move on without them...but we'd prefer to have their support, as far as possible....

We'll give the prejudiced parties a little bit of time to deal with this matter....  (They say it normally takes a person only two to three weeks to change their thinking or change a habit....  It doesn't have to take long.  But we'll give people some time.) 

Reading My Pamphlet

Was able to get something scanned, after all....  (Had to go to a different library--am using library computers.)  If you click on the document, it'll enlarge and it can be read more easily.  I hope that people might get some benefit from this.  (The entire document will show up when it's enlarged....)

Also, there's a new post that went onto the second page of this blog....  People have to click on "Older Posts."  Thank you.

My Pamphlet--page five

 

My Pamphlet--page four

 

My Pamphlet--page three

 

My Pamphlet--page two

 

My Pamphlet--page one

 

My Pamphlet Explains My Views on Helping Gay People

Have written a pamphlet for my church, and other interested parties, about "Showing Compassion and Mercy Towards Homosexual People."  I wrote it a number of years ago and have made a few additions sometimes, including one today....   Would like to upload it onto this blog but I'm having trouble....  If I'm not able to post it today, people are welcome to ask me for a copy and I could mail/email it to them....  Sorry for this problem.  Will keep trying but am not sure if I'll succeed...?

For the record, today's amendment to the pamphlet says, "Would like to state separately and emphasize that I believe the church shouldn't speak publicly--to any public audience--against gay marriage.  It doesn't solve anything and only offends people  unnecessarily."

One More Issue...--Part 2

Would like to be clear that I don't expect the church to CONDONE gay marriage at any time....  The church views the practise of homosexuality as a sin; and sin is sin.  That is the church's view and it's the reason they don't accept gay marriage within the church.  However, I'm asking that the church could RESPECT the choice of some gays OUTSIDE of the church to marry....  And if in the natural course of events we're in a position to reasonably provide a product or service, or some other legal obligation to a gay couple we shouldn't refuse to do so.  We should comply and be gracious, in my opinion.

Furthermore, I think the police and their civilian associates would like the conservative churches to refrain from making comments in public against gay marriage....  I'd appreciate it if the church would take their time and consider this matter....

I've Been Kind of a Political Prisoner...

My life has been very complicated for some time....  I'd say that I'm kind of like a political prisoner....  The police have held me on false mental health charges, if not previously on false criminal charges also, and they've wanted to influence both the politics in our society--which they indirectly did--and to influence the conservative churches....  The police in the special police project have wanted my help, and I've been helping, to the best of my ability--while I often prayed for God's help!  

Perhaps there was a desire for conservative churches to approve of homosexuality completely, and that's not going to happen, but I've made an offer today--I believe I've planted a seed--about what churches COULD go along with....  I believe the churches could extend this "olive branch," as I've explained and it's perfectly reasonable and even necessary....  

Sometimes my life has been rewarding and interesting--not always--but sometimes....  I believe that if I don't do my duty--my whole duty--God won't bless me...but if I've made my efforts, then it'll just be up to other people to make their choices....  I can't FORCE the churches to change, but I believe they'll do the right thing when they realize what that is....  And I hope and believe the police will let me go--and pay what was promised--when they understand that my work is done....  

We have a few issues to sort out...before this Halloween, if possible...!?  They've always had a Halloween deadline for the year....  Conservative Christians may not want to celebrate Halloween very much, except as an innocent childhood activity maybe, but some people like it just for fun....  

If necessary, I'll continue writing a little more for my church later on...but I believe I've made a good start for today....  [Beyond what I've discussed in the past.]

(My mental health has certainly been under strain, and I've been treated for issues in the past, but I'm not guilty of things that I've been accused of....  Some police know it and acknowledged it....  Some others are still getting to know me better....)

One More Issue for My Church, and others

Have said a while ago that this blog was mostly for some police and firefighters in a special police project....  But it has also been for officials in my church, at the headquarters in the USA....  Shortly after I began writing the blog, I notified some of their offices and I seemed to get a positive reaction....  I've heard a few hints, here and there, over the years....  

Today, I'd like to write something especially for the church in this post....  I had thought I'd covered all the issues but it seems there's one more....  

In our North American society, we now have "gay marriage, with religious exemptions...."  The conservative churches don't have to condone gay marriage within their group....  But I'd like to appeal to the church to respect the choice of gays OUTSIDE of the church....  

Our church believes that every person will one day face the judgment of God....  However, we don't judge other people, ourselves, and we don't force them to do what we--or even God--wants...!  How do we know if some gays, on their journey of life, might BENEFIT from entering a gay marriage--whether it's for a short-term or a longer term...?  Of course, in our church we can preach about our standards and beliefs...but in my opinion we can't demand the same of all the public....  Could we not accept them how they are, and respect what they'd like to do--because it's their choice...?  

The church sometimes comes in direct contact with married gays because of employment--for example, custodial services....  And the law may say that family health benefits have to be paid....  The church has sometimes resisted these kinds of actions...and from what I've seen and heard, these attitudes are hurtful to gays....  They want things to change....  

The church headquarters in the USA have a team of lawyers who work for them....  We had an article about them in our Canadian church magazine not too long ago....  The head counsel is Canadian, if I'm not mistaken, and he handled a religious liberty case for me many years ago....  He seems to be a very sensible and experienced person, from what I read and from my own situation....  Maybe the church officials would like to discuss my concerns with their lawyers...?

Some police have spoken directly to church leaders, at times, and they could feel free to refer people to this blog post, if they wish...?  I'd really like for the leaders to consider if they can adjust their opinions...?  We can accept "gay marriage, with religious exemptions," and accept people's right to choose outside of the church....  If necessary, I'll continue writing a little more (when I have time)....  

They're Not Waiting for Him...

 As far as I understand, some of the local police have indicated that they want to go past the "Irishman...."  They're not necessarily waiting for him....  So, that's kind of a relief, in some ways....  This "Irishman" has contributed a lot over the years but he may not be the one to resolve the final issues...!?  And that's okay....

I Had a Lot of Constructive Interests

Some recent radio ads have said musical training helps to develop children's minds...and it also helps seniors to be healthy and alert....  As a child and teen, I had a lot of musical training and performance experiences compared to the average person...but not compared to people who became professional musicians....  (These days, I still play the piano sometimes.)

As a young person, my main interests were music, volunteer work, travel, and a little bit of sports, along with working part-time jobs every year....  I was very busy!  Have written about my work and past-times earlier....

Because of the teasing I got, my self-esteem was low...but if I'd had a better self-image to begin with I could've resisted the teasing....  My parents were busy working much of the time....  But looking back, I believe I had a lot going for me....  My parents did their best and gave me opportunities....

In the police project, I want to stand up for what's right--as I've been trying to do--and I hope things won't take too much longer....  We've made progress but we want to see definite results and a resolution!

Getting Clarity in Hindsight--Part 1

When I was a child, my 3rd and 4th grades were in the same classroom with the same teacher.  One day, this teacher asked us to tell what we'd like to be when we grew up?  I thought for a minute and realized I liked writing on the blackboard, so I decided I'd like to be a teacher!

In the following years in the elementary school where I attended, I read stories about "problem children" who got helped by their teachers.  This part of teaching appealed to me--to help children with their problem behaviour--children who were worse than I was, at the time....

During high school, I wasn't always sure I wanted to be a teacher but I kept it at the back of my mind and didn't find a better option....  In college I first started working on my general classes for a Bachelor of Arts degree....

In the police project, some people heard me say I had problems as a teen because of my parents separation and problems earlier with my sister when I changed from the public school to the church school....  [I had some anger issues.]  And these people wondered why I wanted to work with children, and how competent I was...?

Have written earlier in this blog that my brother was born when I was 10 years old and I always made a point of getting along with him....  I also started babysitting my cousin's five children as they were born, and I enjoyed it.  In high school, I did volunteer work with kids for a few years; and I genuinely appreciated working with children.  [As far as I was aware, there were no problems in my interactions with all these young children and things proceeded smoothly.]

Continued in post below.

Getting Clarity in Hindsight--Part 2

Continued from post above.

Sometimes in school, we did a commercial personality test which was supposed to show our aptitude for different occupations.  But my friends and I never found any benefit from those tests, I'm sorry to say....  Looking back now, I believe the work that appealed to me the most in elementary school was to be a child psychologist when I grew up....  That would've been interesting and rewarding.

People who study psychology sometimes have some minor problems that they can learn about and help their own lives...and I believe I could've done that with all my family problems....  I could've healed myself!

My eating disorder was a slightly bigger thing that might or might not've benefitted from child psychology training...?  I might've needed separate treatment, as I got?  But just having a purpose and a cause to live for makes a difference!  I floundered for a long enough time without having a definite career.... 

People have accused me of being gay when I was young.--I had other issues and was very busy, as I've written here and elsewhere.  [I didn't have time to worry about my own, or anyone else's, sexual orientation!]  But I'm glad I can look back now even in hindsight and make more sense of things.

I Prayed a Special Prayer

In both high school and college, I had a lot of travelling experiences--probably more than most students.  In my first year of college in England, I went to visit family near Scandinavia at Christmastime; and when the school year ended, I had a train pass to travel around Western Europe for a month....  My train trip was safe and successful, at that time, and when I arrived back on the school grounds, I felt very blessed!  I spontaneously prayed a prayer that God would use me to help a LOT of people!  Then I forgot about it....  But, if I may say, I don't think God did.  We haven't seen all the results of the police project yet...but one day they'll announce what's been going on....

Have had many ups and downs in my life, which I've explained separately, but they say travel is good for writers....  I believe it makes them more knowledgeable and open-minded.  Not that travel was my only asset or resource, but I also believe my travel was good for me.  It was a positive investment in my life and nobody forced it on me.--I consciously chose it, without very much direct input from my parents.  (My church and school encouraged me somewhat.) 

My travels were such a source of satisfaction, education, and delight for me; and I prayed a special prayer.--I didn't want to think only of myself....  Sometimes God takes His time to answer us but I believe He wants everything that would be good for us; and I believe there's a lot that has been and will be good in the police project--in spite of some frivolity and human error and weakness....

Some Concerns Have Been Intelligent and Respectable

 As far as I can see right now, "the Irishman" and his associates are being given control, for the time being....  I've said before that their concerns are false or exaggerated...situations are blown out of proportion.  The reason they're not credible is because gay or bi-sexual people have wishful thinking and they'd LIKE to prove that I'm gay....  But they haven't been able to do that....

The Irishman was told around 40 years ago that I was gay--and it was a false story.  The police project was using "war-time" strategy...they wanted to use any means within their reach to fight for gay rights; and they also didn't want an opposite-sex romance within the police project....  The Irishman's help had been wanted, and he has helped....  But in my opinion, the remaining concerns are sensationalized in film and television, and they're cheap and common.....  There are no more credible concerns for me to respond to, that I can see.

So, I've also said before that I don't wish to deal with the Irishman or his associates.  After we get past him, then we can resolve other issues with other parties....  And some have been intelligent and respectable.

NOTE:  I don't know if someone with appropriate authority will intervene in this matter, or if we'll just have to have a stand-off between the Irishman's party and myself--however long it takes...!?

Local Police--Part 4

The three sections of my local police that I mentioned the other day were the ones who I believe are involved in what I've called the police project....  Of course, there are other police who only know what's on record about me, if they know anything at all....  [The social media police have followed me a certain amount, and I respect that....]

As far as the criminal complainant goes, it hasn't been proven that he's involved in my police project....  I don't have direct contact with him and don't expect to....  If he has contact with police, who have indirect contact with me, that's his choice....  But I have no proof of anything, and I'm not overly concerned about his life....  

Just wanted to clarify these points.

Local Police--Part 3

Actually, I think most people would be happy and proud, if they KNEW that our Canadian Interpol and the world police have been involved [I understand countries can voluntarily join Interpol but they're not required to...something like that?]...but I don't seem to be effective enough to be able to tell them...!?  

In the past, the police project was deliberately divided into many sections in order that they wouldn't go out of business if a prejudiced party with power found them out....  But these days, it seems many politicians and even civilians have been aware of what's going on....  It's just a question of, when will we tell the story in public--and what will it take to get ready...!? 

Local Police--Part 2

There has been an African-Canadian lawyer--not practising in Canada--who has been one of the highest, civilian advisors in the police project....  I've heard that "the Irishman" has consulted with him, at times....  I've also seen evidence that this lawyer is connected to SOME of the Mounties in Ottawa...but he's not necessarily connected to the Interpol office...!?  It's possible he's not, or else he's not revealing all his hand...?  But I've seen recent evidence that SOME of my local police ARE connected to Interpol, and I heard something to that effect earlier when I actually had contact with Interpol--and I'd been referred by the RCMP to speak to them....  [Or to write a few letters, as it turned out....]  

If "the Irishman" doesn't believe me, I have to acknowledge that I don't APPEAR to be a credible source--considering the strikes I have against me....  Can I blame him for not listening???  So, that's why I'm asking my local police to back me up and tell what they know...?  I don't know what else to do, at this time....  

[Many of the parties weren't given all the information about the police project and things have branched out, at different times....  I'm sorry for any inconvenience and confusion or disappointment, but I wasn't the one who planned this business....] 

Dealing With My Local Police...

A long time ago, I heard my local police had authority to make decisions on the final resolution of this case....  The conclusion was more or less up to them, that is....  In the past month or two, I've been dealing with my local police through discreet means....  They've had groups with a couple of civilian advisors with them, who had a high profile in the police project.  One was "the Irishman" and the other was known as "Mr. K."

We've aired out some relevant issues as far as possible; and I believe I've done what I can with the other concerns of all the parties everywhere....  There's also a group of my local police who have a connection to some Ottawa Mounties, and I've seen--as far as I could tell--that these local police understand the full story of my involvement in the police project....  Their associates and their advisors only understand me so far because I don't have enough credibility on my own, when I try to explain....  [There are three groups of my local police, that I've seen, and sometimes they actually work against each other because they don't all have the same information.]

Have asked the above local police if they'd speak to their associates or use the help of the chief of police, who in this case is an interim chief....  [This group and the Ottawa Mounties had been aware of all the details of my case--I didn't have to tell them....]  Otherwise, I believe my hands are tied unless I want to carry on with frivolous concerns with the other parties....  I'm an older person and my health has already suffered.  I've been through a lot in the past 20+ years!

"The Irishman" has refused to read my blogs, for different reasons, and I have to say it's his loss...!  Anyway, I'll wait and see what the local police are going to do--and if they help me, then we can get on with resolving the issues for the other parties who've been left at the sidelines...including the criminal complainant and others....  [I've already suggested some conclusions, which some parties have appreciated, and I'd have even more credibility....]

P.S.  It happens that "the Irishman" was also given some authority in resolving this case; and he USED TO live in this area but he no longer does....  There has been a conflict between this man and the local police who are connected to the Ottawa Mounties, and as I've said, the two parties didn't have all the same information....  [I've tried to explain things to "the Irishman" and his police associates myself, at different times, but they haven't believed me--that the Canadian Interpol/RCMP in Ottawa have been involved....  Interpol is the International Criminal Police Organization....]

 

Summary for New Readers

This blog has been mostly for police and firefighters and some civilian associates, and some interested observers, regarding a special project....  Many of the first-responders are gay or bi-sexual and there has been a lot of competition between the different parties.  When they first began, the project was almost seen as a war--against unfair practises and standards against homosexual people--and there were all kinds of complicated schemes and strategies in place.  I was railroaded to help, if I may say, even though I'm a heterosexual.... 

There was a plan to go public at some point and I'm trying to push for that in the near future, if possible....  It seems the competing parties didn't even know all that the others were doing, so there's been conflict....  I'm working and praying that we'll all be on the same page soon.

They Were Jealous and Insecure?

There was an old, black-and-white movie which I only saw the last part of....  I have no idea what the title was?  But at the end, a man and a woman became a couple and they received a big pile of money from somewhere....  I've said before that the police project was started in the 1930's, and I believe this movie was connected to it.

There was a different, old movie called "Renfrew of the Royal Mounted," which I also believe was connected to the police project....  In this movie, a young officer named Sergeant Renfrew was involved in accusing a young woman...and by the end of the film, the two had become romantically involved....

After money was starting to be earned successfully in the police project, I think the gay men involved became jealous and insecure...and they wanted to MAKE SURE there wasn't an opposite-sex romance in the police project, with the couple taking all the money...!?

This is probably the main reason why the complainant and "The Irishman" were told that I was gay, in my opinion?  The police wanted to make sure that we'd never become romantically involved!  Both of these men have been associated with the police project for a good 40 years or more, and that's a long time....

In the first film above, I don't believe they wanted to show what WOULD happen, but it was an "opposite" story showing what they NEVER WANTED to happen...!  And the police project has done a good job.  Maybe they wanted to "give me a run for my money" also, as the expression goes, on the subject of homosexuality.  But the police project has successfully prevented any romantic entanglements, if there was a danger of them....

As far as the payments go, I believe the money has been, or is being, divided among various police and civilians, including myself.  It's not all going to one person.  So, I hope and expect everything will be settled fairly....

The Persecuted Become the Persecutors...for a little while

 It has happened in history that when a group of people was persecuted, they later began to persecute the persecutors when they had an opportunity to do so....  

It seems the complainant was misled about my sexual orientation from the beginning and it was supposed to be his job to get me to come out in public....  There was also an issue about breaking down the restrictions of the conservative churches....  I've taken a stand by saying they've followed me for over 20 years, and they haven't been able to show that I'm gay--it's because I'm not.  And I can speak at least for my own church that they're not going to change their beliefs against the practise of homosexuality.

There's a movie called "Trading Places" from several decades ago....  I believe I've mentioned it before in the third Waterlily blog....  In my opinion, it's a symbolic story, and the police project has wanted me to be treated like a harassed gay person...but they knew that things would work out all right in the end...!?  

The complainant and others have had their fun trying to influence me....  I consider this work to be somewhat frivolous....  But other police parties have done more serious work [and I've helped them] and they haven't come forward yet....  The complainant and his associates don't know what they've done and I'm not sure if they even believe me or not?  The other parties may be in a minority?  Maybe they wanted me to resolve all my personal and so-called criminal matters...?  

The police project wanted to use the complainant and the criminal matters for their purposes...and the complainant and his friends might feel foolish when they find out...?  But I've said that I'm willing to pay some financial compensation to the complainant if I get my full pay that was told to me verbally by a certain police force in 2014 [they told a third party].  I don't admit to any criminal problems towards the complainant but I know now that he honestly did feel harassed by some of my past actions...and I've benefited from the police project in ways that he's not yet aware.  

My computer time is very limited but I'm trying to say what I can in a short time.

He Had His Views

 In this past lockdown, we've been discussing some things privately again....  And in September 2017, I wrote some posts in this blog about the complainant in the criminal matters, who used to be an adjudicator with the former Ontario Rental Housing Tribunal....  I said that he'd had a conflict of interest in my Landlord/Tenant matter....  He was an adjudicator in good standing, yes.  And the Tribunal had no rules which involved his conflict of interest....  But he was an independent "court agent," who didn't belong to any professional association as far as I know, and he had no professional standards to follow--unlike the lawyers and paralegals who practise law in Ontario....  So, he seemed to be unaware that he had a conflict and that he should've removed himself from my case--even though there were other adjudicators already working on my case after I filed the first review request....  

Considering that the complaint had the conflict and didn't recognize or didn't admit it, it was plausible that he had certain views about my personal letters and the joke sexual letter....  It seemed to him that I was using the personal letters and also the joke letter to petition him about the Landlord/Tenant matter....  And when I had mentioned in a letter that I had an interest in going to law school--it was just an item of interest--he saw it as a threat against him and/or my landlady....  Okay, so I can see his point of view....  He felt harassed and distressed, and he was also married at the time--which I didn't know....

On my side, I had misunderstandings about his personal and flirty comments which he'd made towards me earlier...and I'd asked him in a letter if he was married and he didn't say he was....  It was a very complicated situation.  I acknowledge that I made mistakes--and I've acknowledged it in the past....  Maybe I have a little more understanding now....  [And as a married man, the complainant never wanted any personal letters from me....  He had other purposes for his flirting, which people said later that he flirted a lot with others....]

There seems to be a group of police who are still going around talking to people who know me about my joke sexual letter.  They're stirring up problems....  Not all the parties in the police project have received the same information, unfortunately, and maybe we can't always blame them for their actions...?  [Although we want to get things resolved as soon as possible....]

Will write some more separately.  [I may or may not finish it today--have limited computer time.]

Both Sides Have Their Fair Rights

 My computer time is very limited but I just wanted to re-emphasize one matter....  The conservative Christian churches and society had been mistaken about homosexuality because they were trying to force gays to live according to their standards....  Gays had a right to have options and make their choices--using their free will.  However, churches have a right to "freedom of religion" and to keep a standard and belief against the practise of homosexuality within their organizations....  That's why we have gay marriage "with religious exemptions."  I don't believe this is going to change or that it needs to.  May God have mercy on the police and firemen, and others, who still want to push me and to rebel on this point.

Making A Request

Sometimes I've made donations to charity on behalf of the police project.  I've used my own name only, along with my personal donations....  I did that recently, and I told my private sources that I was making a request to "the universe" that things would work out in the best way for the special police project.  I don't intend to answer any more questions because I don't believe it's productive.  [Have written a lot in my blogs and I believe it's sufficient.]  I trust things will work out.

Catching Up Again

During our lockdown in this province, I've been able to discuss some further issues privately....  One was that I saw a number of family, Christmas movies which reminded me of my childhood....  I remembered that from quite a young age, I made an effort to give at least some small gifts to everyone in my family at Christmas.  I did it year after year.  We had some family dysfunction, as I've written before, but I wanted to show some love to my family.  Looking back, it made me feel happy that I took this action; and I may write further in the Waterlily Story II blog when I have a chance...?

Another point which I discussed was that I believe my parents made a big mistake in not talking to me about it before they put me into the private, church school in the second grade....  Have also written about this matter before....  My parents meant well but they had the wrong reasons for sending me to this school....  I believe Christian education is good but we would've needed family counselling first of all....  (Both of my parents have passed away by now....  I forgive them for their mistakes....)

A third point which I discussed privately was that I read an article in the Toronto Star/Sunday Star newspaper on February 7, 2021, which told of a police raid carried out 40 years earlier in Toronto.  There were reportedly 100 officers, some with crowbars and sledgehammers, who arrested 300 men at public bath houses....  There was apparently suspicion of homosexual behaviour....  I'm sure the police were following the laws at the time, but I've said before that I believe the public would be HAPPY to know that a small minority of the police were working on a special project to help gay rights...!

Won't go into the other points--I don't think it's necessary.  Will write a little more separately to show where I've left things with the police project....