The Overall Picture

Have said in my previous post below that the criminal matters were the most important thing but there were actually three major issues.  There was the landlord/tenant matter, there are the gay issues, and there are the criminal matters....  All of these have been quite significant to deal with.  And we're preparing for publicity....  [Questions about my life and childhood, along with the support and testimony of the "Irish boy" have been secondary....]


Even though there's one part of the criminal matters that MIGHT'VE been human error, I'm going to take the position that certain police knew I was being prosecuted falsely and it's within their power to help....  They've also taken a solid step towards admitting liability in the past.--It's just that they weren't willing to settle at the time....  And now, I believe I've written everything I can--about the criminal matters and about the other topics....  Short of wandering along cow paths and cow pastures, so to speak....  And if the police need some time to think about things, that's fine.  They can take their time.... 

One Question Answered

Have answered one concern, as I said, which was brought up by a particular police group,
but I've decided it's not worthwhile to respond to various individual police agencies with
their miscellaneous concerns....  It's not productive....  These police are missing a lot of
facts about me, which have already been explained elsewhere; and the biggest issue is the
criminal situation....  Right now, I'm just waiting for the police who I believe were involved
in prosecuting the charges falsely--without giving me a proper chance to defend myself....
If they're going to step up, it'll make a difference; and they admitted some liability in the
past....  [Nothing official in writing so far, however....] 


If the parties need some time to think about my writing about the criminal matters, which
I did in kind of a private blog, then that's fine.... 


Don't know if we'll get anything settled by Christmas--it would be nice!--but whatever
they can do would be appreciated...! 


[If some police purposely interfered with the evidence in the criminal matters, then it
would make a difference--unless if the problems were caused by human error...?--In
the case of human error, it might be harder to get anyone to come forward...?  We'll see...?] 

Definitely Plan B!

Yes, so we're working on Plan B!  It might be a month or so yet...?  Give or take a little!

"Plan B"

The private writing which I do in another place on the Internet is kind of like a private blog....  It's not open to the public and is only for certain parties....  We've still been discussing some matters quite intensely and I don't know, but it's possible we won't be ready in time for this Halloween....  But the other work that I wanted to do, after Halloween, was to resolve this business regardless of the time frame....  My business around the gay issues has already been settled, in my opinion, so it's just some other business issues and my criminal matters which are in question....  We're working!  And we'll keep going--hopefully not for too much longer, if we go past Halloween.... 

Am Still Working...

Have been doing some private writing and there have been issues to discuss about the police business....  Am not able to reveal everything in public.  Just wondering if we're going to be
ready in time to make an announcement by this Halloween???  I'm not sure and it's not up to
me...!  Guess we'll keep working for a few more days and see what happens...?

The Time is Now...--part 2

If the police and firefighters don't act in time, I have some other plans that I'm going to work on....  [Am not going to share my plans here....]

The Time is Now...

Will repeat again that I've had ideas which would make the official movie the best plan for both the "black" side and the "white" side.  There's nothing better that we could do for publicity, in my opinion, except of course to have a news conference announcing what's going on....  If the police didn't already have a successful plan for the movie, I've given them ideas which I believe would help.

So, at this time, the police and FC need to be preparing for the news conference.  And they need to be seriously sharing their information with each other....  My own work is pretty much done, as far as I know.... 

All I can do is pray that people will get the encouragement and information they'd need from the film and the news conference--and that the parties will accomplish them in a timely manner.... 

Financial Concerns?

Have heard from my secret sources that a certain group of police are concerned about getting paid after the business is resolved, if not before.  It's not that it's up to me but I think that if any police were told in the past that they'd get paid, then they probably will be....  I think that's reasonable.

We might want to let the police have their news conference first and then sort out the pay afterwards....  I can offer my support in this matter, if it's any help?  Anyway, if the parties start bickering too much about money before the news conference we might not make it in time for this year? And if any party delays too much, I think they should be penalized....  We have a deadline coming up and it's not far away now.

Will write a little further in my private writing.

Some Want Closure...

Some of the fire chiefs wanted to close the police project....  But the question is, in what way are we going to close it???  Are we going to sweep everything under the carpet--try to???  Or are we going to disclose what's been happening and have a movie made to tell the story...??????  They could have a news conference but a movie would help to give a better history, even if it's partly fictionalized.... 

So, what are people going to do??? 

The parties involved could tell the story, themselves, and I believe it would be preferable that way than if other people find out and expose them....  We actually have a tremendous potential for success--with all our resources--if the parties would reveal their own story.... 

One Other Thing

Besides the prejudiced parties, it's possible some parties are still fooling around with the gay accusation against me...?  That could be a reason why they're stalling??? 

It's kind of a vicious cycle.  I want to get paid for my writing; and some people are trying to make me say I'm gay before I get paid....  And that's why I've said I can't humour them any more.  I've already said I'm not gay. 

I can't reveal everything that happened recently but I was told through my secret sources that if I'd answer one final question about the criminal charges, they'd let me go free....  And I gave them an honest and thorough answer, over the course of two days.  And that's when some police started acting like hyperactive children...!  What did they want???  I'm sure I don't know--exactly.  But it just seems like they're not keeping their word...?  Or maybe they need some more time to think...?  And I'll try to give them more time without interrupting too much.... 

And What's Happening...???--part 2

As for the criminal matters, I don't wish to make any more responses about them.  I don't plan to do so, at least not before we resolve the business and I get paid for my writing....  [And I may not have a response afterward either.--I don't know....  And they may not want a response afterward....]  So, I'm done with that!  Completely done.

As for the gay rights business, I think I've also finished what needed to be done--up to the part of preparing for an official movie about this business and to help reduce prejudice further....  Is there anything else???  [I'm not sure there is...?]

And What's Happening...???

Have written a response to something that was asked of me regarding the original criminal charges.  But it seems the parties aren't serious....  They're just fooling around and making excuses....  Some people in the police project are prejudiced and don't want to go forward with the business.  And that's not acceptable to me; and I'm sure there are others who won't accept it, either.... 

The police and firefighters need to wake up and really consider what they're trying to do...???  And how much are they going to tolerate from the prejudiced parties??? 

One of these days, I'll really be finished with the police project and I'll leave them up to God's justice...!!!??? 

Anyway, if the parties aren't serious with their complaints about me then I guess they're done, themselves???  There's no reason why we can't go forward and resolve all this business...!!!??????

What's Happening Now...

In the private writing that I'm doing right now, we're trying to wrap up the final points around my criminal matters....  Of course, it has been a very complicated situation and I wasn't 100% innocent, although I wasn't as guilty as it seemed....  So, when these matters are resolved, then maybe the appropriate police will release the information about their part in the false criminal charges; and other police will release information about the official movie and any other business....  Whatever information the police need to know between themselves--at least the ones directly involved in the police project--I'm hoping and expecting they'll get on with it.... 

So, this is my understanding and expectation at this time.... 

New Post

Have added a new post in Waterlily Story II today where I mentioned that we're on schedule for a proposed reveal of the police project at Halloween time...!!!  It would be a possibility for this year, in my opinion....  It had been suggested in the past that Halloween would be a desirable time--just as a fun thing, I guess?  Not that it couldn't be exposed at any time.... NOTE ADDED ON SEPTEMBER 28:  Have since heard differently, as I also wrote in Waterlily Story III today....  We may be able to resolve the issues at any time, as far as I know, but the police project would only be revealed at a Halloween....  It doesn't necessarily have to be this year but I think it would be desirable, if we can possible finish everything by then...?  I'm working...!

They Need to Step Up...

For the record, I believe the writing that I've sent to California was very good and I came to a good conclusion....  And I don't believe the police or firefighters need anything else that's significant from me--except to show that I can be a reasonable person and have good behaviour, etc.  I'm able to write a little in my blog, if necessary; and I'm willing to do that....  Otherwise, I should be finished....

It's the police who know about the false criminal charges who need to come forward....  There's not too much I can do without them.  Even other employment is very difficult, if not impossible, for me....  I've been kept isolated; and my character and my reputation have been maligned....  I've tried to be agreeable to the police and firefighters and I've done my best....  Now it's their turn to do something for me; and not just for me but for the entire project....

Some of the main police and firefighters who are involved are gay, I believe....  And they were fed the false story that I was gay....  But they've got to get over their disappointment and bring something constructive out of this business--as I've shown them in my writing that something is possible....  I don't want to reveal all the details here, in a public place, any more than I've already told in my blogs....

We have a great potential for success, if the parties will move forward....  And I believe I've finished the main part of my job that I was meant to do.... 

If They're Concerned About the Movie...

Have heard that some people are concerned about what kind of influence on society the official movie would have???  And maybe some parties are dragging their feet because of it???  But I think the police and fire people should all put their heads together and discuss the matter...and they can more or less decide what kind of influence they WANT the movie to have???  Also, I've said that if they sell the story to screenwriters and filmmakers, they may not have 100% control over the film any longer....  [And some people may be a little paranoid...?  Or they have legitimate concerns, and that's fine....]

Myself, I said I'd like to see the film break down further unreasonable prejudice against gay people and gay marriage with religious exemptions....  That's my view.  Is there anything wrong with it?  People can decide if they agree or disagree...?  And the police and firefighters have been working on a worldwide scale--considering influences in other countries....  But even in North America, a lot of prejudice has remained from what I've heard in the media and on the Internet....  And there are the African countries where homosexual behaviour is still seen and prosecuted as a criminal offense.... 

For the record, if the film is made from a pro-gay view with a lot of pro-gay hype, I don't think it'll help much in breaking down prejudice but may do the opposite....  The pro-gay people might be happy and want to celebrate but it wouldn't help the anti-gay side.... 

So, isn't it reasonable to ask the parties to get together and negotiate what they want...???  And they'd have to decide to choose some very credible and devoted screenwriters and filmmakers who would do the cause justice....  And I'm sure there are those kinds of people available.... 

Please, let's negotiate!  And let's find the most authentic film people to handle the project....  We don't have to sell the story to the first parties who come along....  We can choose.... 

Some Police are Holding Back

It seems there are some police who'd like to move ahead but there are others who are prejudiced and don't want to....  Earlier, I think I said somewhere that I didn't want to respond to the prejudiced police any longer...but I think they need to be exposed.--Not that I can identify who they are....  I just want to acknowledge the fact that the prejudiced police are out there.... 

Society is moving ahead in their understanding and acceptance of gay people....  It's a shame some police are holding back....  And what can I do?  I just have to let them run their course, I suppose...? 

As Dr. Phil said, you have to "Name it to claim it!"  So, I'm trying to do that.... 

If I Could Help...

If there was something I could honestly do to help this business right now, I'd like to do that.  But as I've been saying, I don't see anything left for me....  And it seems the best thing to do is walk away and let the parties handle their own business from here.  I've also been saying the police--and the fire people--all need to share their information with each other.... 

We've Been Trying

For the record, if the FC hadn't come after me in 1998, it's possible some of the police would've....  Am referring to false accusations....  Or, I don't know!?  Sometimes nobody wants to own up to anything....  And maybe there wouldn't have been false accusations if things had been different...if my behaviour had been a little more knowledgeable of the processes and more proper.... 

Maybe I should've made an effort to stand up for myself earlier but I was waiting for other people to be fair....  And you can't always wait!!!  But we've also had other matters to be negotiated, which included some business matters about my ex-husband and my forbidden romance situation which happened at a residential Christian school in the past....  It all makes a difference if there's going to be a commercial film....  [My ex-husband had been quite involved with the police....]  You can't tell a haphazard story in public and you have to be prepared to answer for your actions, past and present.... 

So, we've been working....  And I'm not perfect....  If I'd known how to do things better, I would've.... 

Controversies

There had been a number of controversies which came up in the past before I was directly involved in the police project myself, and I've helped to sort them out....  But now, the situation with the new stalker person is threatening to become another controversy....  And it seems the police project is a breeding ground for controversies...!  Before things get out of hand again and before I get dragged down further, I think it's best for me to walk away from this business!

The matter with that stalker has been completely unacceptable, in my view.  It should never have happened.  But it did.  And I think it might be best for the DDs or DFC just to arrange my pay at this time....  The DDs told me earlier that they could arrange my pay very quickly...it doesn't have to be a long process....

Anyway, I think I'm going to completely quit the police project--unless if they need my help for the official film, or anything related.  Or, if people have legitimate business with me, they can contact me by normal business means--by letter, telephone, or email.  Some people would have that information or they could find it easily enough.... 

Delaying My Business

The police don't want me to take any longer than necessary to wrap up this business but I've wanted to make sure I was thorough and didn't have people coming back to me in a few weeks or few months asking for something....  That's why I'm trying to be careful and to handle everything now--while I have to be reasonable and give the parties opportunities to think and to respond....  And if the parties respond with spite, then I know they're not on the right track....  But I'm hopeful that we're going to be understanding each other better.... 

Demanding Accountability--part 3

By standing up for myself and for the police project, I believe it's a way that I can improve my self-confidence and my image for business purposes....  I'm not trying to embarrass the police or FC in public but it happens that I already contacted the police through private sources, including California [as private as that was] and including some police who weren't officially investigating my criminal matter...it's kind of a long story because there have been so many different police involved....  Many of the police are connected to each other in my business, in one way or another, but they're not all taking an active role, I guess...?  Anyway, I didn't actually fill out a police report about the stalker but I did make a complaint to some local police.... 

The police and FC are welcome to give me their feedback, if they have something worthwhile to add, through their "secret sources..."  [Or they can get their cheque books ready--from the police....  I know they're planning to pay me--they've indicated such on a number of occasions including recently--but I believe they should also pay something to some charities, as I've mentioned....] 

Demanding Accountability--part 2

There's another matter which I believe involves the DFC and I'd like them to act on it as soon as possible.  There was actually a person about whom I'd complained to the police--that this person was stalking me--and the police actually started using that person to approach me for their own purposes....  They did worse than brush me off, they escalated the problem!  [And it's possible the person had some contact with, or knowledge of, the police earlier.]  And I'd like the police and/or the DFC to cut off their contact with this person....  They need to tell him they don't need his help any longer.... 

The above person is guilty of criminal harassment towards me, in my opinion, and I didn't try to make a criminal case of it so far because I knew it'd be hard to prove....  But I believe that because of this matter, the police and DFC should also make a cash donation to a reputable charity for women's safety....  I haven't quite decided which kind of a charity and the matter also hasn't come to a conclusion yet....  Hopefully, the situation will be cut off and/or the person will be caught before he actually does any act of violence towards anyone.... 

Some of the police must be quite amused at the thought of using a stalker to get to a "stalker!"  I'm an alleged stalker, myself...!  But it's not amusing.  It's quite serious and I've been dealing with this person for a couple of years already, in a certain location....  It's not that I want to cry about the past but it's an ongoing concern, as I've said, and the police and perhaps FC will have to be accountable for it--to the degree that they've dismissed my complaints and have encouraged the person to approach me.... 

Demanding Accountability

Have seen and heard things which indicate the FC or DFC are still offended by me....  In my criminal matters, I wasn't what they call one of those "wholly innocent" people....  And as I stated in my previous post, below, there has been escalation of our problems by the FC or their associates and by myself....  One of the occasions happened because I'd been physically injured in my face--not directly by anybody in the police project--and my social life was limited, and I allowed myself to feel provoked, at the time.... 

The thing about feeling provoked and reacting hastily is that it's more difficult to resolve the problem at hand....  And I wasn't able to resolve the problem with the FC and their associates.  The fact is, in my opinion and which there's evidence for, is that the FC and associates took the first shots at me....  I'm not able to spell it out in this space but I believe they'd understand that it's true...???

The FC had good intentions but they just didn't have enough information....  And it's quite a serious matter....  It was one of those cases where a sexual abuse victim--myself--got blamed and the perpetrator was excused and let off scot-free....  This was regarding something that happened in the far distant past....  But if the FC didn't want to get me completely out of the police project, they wanted to damage part of my credibility and get me partly out...?  Am not 100% clear on the details....  But that was what the situation was; and it was the reason why my original criminal matter was exaggerated and falsified, to use the term loosely....  [There was interference with the evidence and I wasn't able to have a fair trial, in my view.] 

It's one thing to talk about this matter and it's another to actually hold the FC and the police accountable.  And I believe there should be a cash donation made to a reputable charity which deals with childhood victims of sexual abuse....  A general, sexual assault charity isn't the same because it's too broad but I'll say more on this a little later....  If the FC aren't dealing with money directly in the police project, they should use their influence and/or the police have to be responsible for inviting the firefighters/FC into the police project...!  Right??? 

If all the parties want to be credible and to have a good movie, they need to be transparent and accountable in their own actions....  That's my strong advice....  And it may be one of the ways to relieve the tensions between the DFC and myself...? 

The Firefighters/Fire Chiefs--part 2

There's a third party--or information source--involving the fire people which I'm going to have to consider....  [And I'm not giving out all the information here.]  But there was progress from one of the other sources and I appreciate it, as far as it goes.... 

For the record, one group of the firefighters was the fire chiefs--different groups of them--and they were known by the FC initials in the police project....  There was also a group of police known as the DDs; and they've been involved in my criminal and false criminal matters....  As far as I understand, the main part of the DDs finished their investigation quite a while ago but there was a portion of them who were still working with the FC...and they were known as DFC....  Have heard that.  At this time, I believe I'm dealing with the DFC. 

Since there was pressure for me to close off my writing to California, and since that particular source was mainly for the chiefs of police--or the CPs--and since I've had reason to believe the FC were reading my blog, I'm planning to do my best to address the remaining issues of the FC and/or DFC in my blog....  Some matters may be sensitive and I don't want to cause any further hardship to anyone by making matters public....  I don't want to escalate the problems any more than they already have been....  [And there has been escalation on both sides--on their side and mine....]  So, I'm trying to be calm and reasonable, and to communicate as well as I can; and I believe that's how we'll get through this business.  [Unless anybody would like to provide a more private platform for the business...?  But I guess they're too nervous of me and don't want to get too close either....  (Whatever.)  We'll get through it.]

Also for the record, the CPs had said recently that they wanted to help with the 1932 police project and everything involved, but the DFC issues don't directly involve them and I believe the DFC should be responsible for themselves....  And actually, maybe my blogs will work out well, except for the above consideration of escalation....  Will really do my best not to bring out things that haven't been brought out to the public--in some places--already....  [And it may not be completely possible...?]

The Firefighters/Fire Chiefs

Have actually heard this and that in the past which I had reason to believe was from fire people....  But it's likely they're like the police--they're here, there, and everywhere--and there are different levels of security for the police project....  Anyway, there are two main sources of information I'm following now....  If the fire people have any more legitimate concerns, which haven't been answered yet, then I'll respond to them.  If not, then I'll have to walk away from them....  [Will give them a chance for a little while longer.--And I hope I'm not wasting time!!?] 

The Real Competition..., part 2

In August 2014, I wrote a post in my Waterlily Story III about the firefighters....  They've been involved in the police project, along with the police.... 

The Real Competition...

The real competition--originally--in the police project came from the firefighters/fire chiefs against the police.  This had been planned from the beginning in order to keep the police on their toes, more or less....

Right now, I'm still dealing with some concerns from the firefighters and I'm trying not to have to write to the California address any longer, so I'll try to respond in my blogs....  The latest concern I've heard is that the firefighters/chiefs don't want to forgive my criminal matter yet....  And I'd like to know if the fire people were ever informed that my criminal charges were false???  They've either been told, or they haven't been...?  So, that's what I'd like to know.  Because if they haven't been told, there isn't necessarily any benefit or any reason in me trying to prove myself to them...!?  [And it would be a question of the appropriate police informing the fire people....]

[From what I've heard in the past, the criminal issues for the fire people usually come down to either supporting or not supporting the gay issues....  And I've already said I wish to support and promote the movie intentions....  Well, I'll see if the fire people are going to bring up any more legitimate concerns, or not...!?]

New Post

Have written in Waterlily Story III today that I believe the official movie is the best option for all the parties, whether pro-gay or anti-gay....  And the movie and the police involved are what I intend to support.  People can read the other blog for more information, if they wish. 

Competing or Cooperating???

Have written before that someone had suggested for the police to compete among themselves--aside from the police/fire competition already--in the past decades....  And it spurred things on when they might've otherwise been slow....  But I've said if the parties ever want to get anywhere now, they really need to cooperate with each other....  Maybe I'm hurting their male egos and being a party-pooper?  ***  It's kind of like they're running a race and then someone comes along and says, "Now why don't you all join hands and cross the finish line together...?"  It's not the typical thing to do!  But I think they need some other way to give out the prizes and the recognition, whatever....  Or the parties who've accomplished the most will be recognized the most in the official film, perhaps....  There just has to be a way that we can get things done.--And I can't see it happening by the competition continuing...?  It's like a chair or a stool with three or four legs.--They can't succeed without each other!  ***  Anyway, some of the police are getting together already, and I'm supporting them....  We just have some stragglers...and they're not small police groups....  I haven't wanted to identify the police groups specifically and I'm not going to embarrass them....  ***  Let's go guys...!  And I think they might surprise us yet...!?  [You never know!?]  And I'm sorry to have to ask for a change but I don't see any other way...! 

A Police Movie--part 3

Just for the record, I haven't meant to say the police will make a movie, themselves....  I meant they'll hire commercial filmmakers.  And they have money from the secret police project, which has included film and TV people and their work...royalties, etc.  [I don't know many details but I've heard a little; and I don't doubt they have enough money!  Anyway, the filmmakers and TV people often are interested in stories they hear from the police (and fire people)....  And our current and past TV shows and movies are full of police (and some firefighter) stories....]

A Police Movie

Have written a note today in Waterlily Story II about the recent U.S. Supreme Court decision on gay marriage....  If some of the police were aiming to do a movie about the police project and gay issues, I'm hoping and expecting them to get going with it....  Otherwise, the writing that I've been doing with California contacts may be coming to an end....  It likely is going to end.  I've made some suggestions to the police and I just want to give them time to think about them....  And if they don't proceed with the film, I think society will advance ahead of us and the film would almost be redundant if they wait too long.--There'll be little point to it, if they don't act on it....  At least they can tell about the history of the police project, I suppose, but it'd be nice to do more in my opinion. 

New Readers

Any new readers who start reading my blog at this time will have a lot to deal with!--I've written a lot since the beginning, in 2009!  If they'd like to go to my list of Labels in the sidebar and look at the Landlord/Tenant matter or my Views on Gay Issues, it might be the easiest....  Those are the main points, I suppose.  Otherwise, I've written that the police, or especially the secret police, have had an interest in my life.  The secret police sometimes use the ordinary police to help them in their projects.  And it's really quite an unbelievable story!!!  I understand that.  And I also said at the beginning that I wasn't especially trying to prove my case to anybody, at the time--then or now.  So, people can take what they like and leave the rest....  And if further evidence becomes available to the public in the future or near future, we can deal with it then...!!!