Facing Off...

So, between the former adjudicator and myself, who'd make a better spokesperson for the special police project???  That's what I want to deal with here....

Who looks better in a criminal matter--the alleged victim, or the alleged perpetrator...?  Who looks better--a false accuser, or the falsely accused...?  Who is left standing...?  Yes, I've been forced to take medication for my nerves or whatever, but the adjudicator himself was voluntarily asking for medication to help him cope earlier....  And the purpose of medication is to help a person think clearly...and the medication does it's job....  I'm not at a disadvantage in this regard as long as I'm able to do what I need to...!  [And people can deal with their health and cope with the side effects of medications....--Not to say this is the conclusion to the whole matter but it's sufficient here.] 

It's true that I embarrassed myself by sending a sexual letter to a place of business, even though it was intended for a specific individual in a personal matter....  And I've made amends and said I was somewhat confused....  The letter apparently wasn't wanted and the individual was allegedly happily married....  Have said I was reckless about the married part....  At the beginning, I'd asked if the person was married and I expected a response immediately if he was....  But there was no response...and it turned out there were other reasons for not responding....  And I mostly put the possibility of being married out of my mind, mistakenly....  The thing was that the adjudicator had flirted with me on the day we first met...and he APPEARED to be quite serious, from my side....  And he had been actually HIRED to flirt with me and to draw me into the police project...!  Also, he'd been hearing about the project and about me for several DECADES earlier, without my knowledge...!  He was already acquainted with me, in other words, and he said later that he'd appreciated me....  These factors had an influence on how I saw the adjudicator and his flirting, at the time--even though I had no way of knowing the whole story immediately....  And this flirting was PARTLY responsible for my confusion about the situation when I had sent the sexual letter....  [Have written about this entire matter earlier....]  I don't believe I need to be entirely blamed for sending the sexual letter, and it was intended as a joke....

As for working for the police project, who has done more???  The adjudicator has done some consulting with the parties, I'm sure....  Has he done writing--maybe a little, if any?  Myself, I'm sure I've done ten times, a hundred times, maybe a thousand times more writing than the adjudicator has???  The parties haven't consulted with me directly but there's been indirect communication....  Most of my writing was mailed to a specific place in California, but there's some available in my blogs....  I can't prove what's been done in the past but the blogs remain...!  I haven't seen that the adjudicator has a blog, or any information on the Internet...?  And if people don't like the Waterlily blogs, I have the nature blog as well--to show what kind of a person I am and that I'm sensible and helpful....  I'm creative and I've done a lot of photography, over the years....  [The nature blog hasn't been promoted much, partly because the police were resisting it...?] 

Will continue separately.