Friday, August 7, 2015
If I Could Help...
If there was something I could honestly do to help this business right now, I'd like to do that. But as I've been saying, I don't see anything left for me.... And it seems the best thing to do is walk away and let the parties handle their own business from here. I've also been saying the police--and the fire people--all need to share their information with each other....
We've Been Trying
For the record, if the FC hadn't come after me in 1998, it's possible some of the police would've.... Am referring to false accusations.... Or, I don't know!? Sometimes nobody wants to own up to anything.... And maybe there wouldn't have been false accusations if things had been different...if my behaviour had been a little more knowledgeable of the processes and more proper....
Maybe I should've made an effort to stand up for myself earlier but I was waiting for other people to be fair.... And you can't always wait!!! But we've also had other matters to be negotiated, which included some business matters about my ex-husband and my forbidden romance situation which happened at a residential Christian school in the past.... It all makes a difference if there's going to be a commercial film.... [My ex-husband had been quite involved with the police....] You can't tell a haphazard story in public and you have to be prepared to answer for your actions, past and present....
So, we've been working.... And I'm not perfect.... If I'd known how to do things better, I would've....
Maybe I should've made an effort to stand up for myself earlier but I was waiting for other people to be fair.... And you can't always wait!!! But we've also had other matters to be negotiated, which included some business matters about my ex-husband and my forbidden romance situation which happened at a residential Christian school in the past.... It all makes a difference if there's going to be a commercial film.... [My ex-husband had been quite involved with the police....] You can't tell a haphazard story in public and you have to be prepared to answer for your actions, past and present....
So, we've been working.... And I'm not perfect.... If I'd known how to do things better, I would've....
Controversies
There had been a number of controversies which came up in the past before I was directly involved in the police project myself, and I've helped to sort them out.... But now, the situation with the new stalker person is threatening to become another controversy.... And it seems the police project is a breeding ground for controversies...! Before things get out of hand again and before I get dragged down further, I think it's best for me to walk away from this business!
The matter with that stalker has been completely unacceptable, in my view. It should never have happened. But it did. And I think it might be best for the DDs or DFC just to arrange my pay at this time.... The DDs told me earlier that they could arrange my pay very quickly...it doesn't have to be a long process....
Anyway, I think I'm going to completely quit the police project--unless if they need my help for the official film, or anything related. Or, if people have legitimate business with me, they can contact me by normal business means--by letter, telephone, or email. Some people would have that information or they could find it easily enough....
The matter with that stalker has been completely unacceptable, in my view. It should never have happened. But it did. And I think it might be best for the DDs or DFC just to arrange my pay at this time.... The DDs told me earlier that they could arrange my pay very quickly...it doesn't have to be a long process....
Anyway, I think I'm going to completely quit the police project--unless if they need my help for the official film, or anything related. Or, if people have legitimate business with me, they can contact me by normal business means--by letter, telephone, or email. Some people would have that information or they could find it easily enough....
Thursday, August 6, 2015
Delaying My Business
The police don't want me to take any longer than necessary to wrap up this business but I've wanted to make sure I was thorough and didn't have people coming back to me in a few weeks or few months asking for something.... That's why I'm trying to be careful and to handle everything now--while I have to be reasonable and give the parties opportunities to think and to respond.... And if the parties respond with spite, then I know they're not on the right track.... But I'm hopeful that we're going to be understanding each other better....
Demanding Accountability--part 3
By standing up for myself and for the police project, I believe it's a way that I can improve my self-confidence and my image for business purposes.... I'm not trying to embarrass the police or FC in public but it happens that I already contacted the police through private sources, including California [as private as that was] and including some police who weren't officially investigating my criminal matter...it's kind of a long story because there have been so many different police involved.... Many of the police are connected to each other in my business, in one way or another, but they're not all taking an active role, I guess...? Anyway, I didn't actually fill out a police report about the stalker but I did make a complaint to some local police....
The police and FC are welcome to give me their feedback, if they have something worthwhile to add, through their "secret sources..." [Or they can get their cheque books ready--from the police.... I know they're planning to pay me--they've indicated such on a number of occasions including recently--but I believe they should also pay something to some charities, as I've mentioned....]
The police and FC are welcome to give me their feedback, if they have something worthwhile to add, through their "secret sources..." [Or they can get their cheque books ready--from the police.... I know they're planning to pay me--they've indicated such on a number of occasions including recently--but I believe they should also pay something to some charities, as I've mentioned....]
Demanding Accountability--part 2
There's another matter which I believe involves the DFC and I'd like them to act on it as soon as possible. There was actually a person about whom I'd complained to the police--that this person was stalking me--and the police actually started using that person to approach me for their own purposes.... They did worse than brush me off, they escalated the problem! [And it's possible the person had some contact with, or knowledge of, the police earlier.] And I'd like the police and/or the DFC to cut off their contact with this person.... They need to tell him they don't need his help any longer....
The above person is guilty of criminal harassment towards me, in my opinion, and I didn't try to make a criminal case of it so far because I knew it'd be hard to prove.... But I believe that because of this matter, the police and DFC should also make a cash donation to a reputable charity for women's safety.... I haven't quite decided which kind of a charity and the matter also hasn't come to a conclusion yet.... Hopefully, the situation will be cut off and/or the person will be caught before he actually does any act of violence towards anyone....
Some of the police must be quite amused at the thought of using a stalker to get to a "stalker!" I'm an alleged stalker, myself...! But it's not amusing. It's quite serious and I've been dealing with this person for a couple of years already, in a certain location.... It's not that I want to cry about the past but it's an ongoing concern, as I've said, and the police and perhaps FC will have to be accountable for it--to the degree that they've dismissed my complaints and have encouraged the person to approach me....
The above person is guilty of criminal harassment towards me, in my opinion, and I didn't try to make a criminal case of it so far because I knew it'd be hard to prove.... But I believe that because of this matter, the police and DFC should also make a cash donation to a reputable charity for women's safety.... I haven't quite decided which kind of a charity and the matter also hasn't come to a conclusion yet.... Hopefully, the situation will be cut off and/or the person will be caught before he actually does any act of violence towards anyone....
Some of the police must be quite amused at the thought of using a stalker to get to a "stalker!" I'm an alleged stalker, myself...! But it's not amusing. It's quite serious and I've been dealing with this person for a couple of years already, in a certain location.... It's not that I want to cry about the past but it's an ongoing concern, as I've said, and the police and perhaps FC will have to be accountable for it--to the degree that they've dismissed my complaints and have encouraged the person to approach me....
Demanding Accountability
Have seen and heard things which indicate the FC or DFC are still offended by me.... In my criminal matters, I wasn't what they call one of those "wholly innocent" people.... And as I stated in my previous post, below, there has been escalation of our problems by the FC or their associates and by myself.... One of the occasions happened because I'd been physically injured in my face--not directly by anybody in the police project--and my social life was limited, and I allowed myself to feel provoked, at the time....
The thing about feeling provoked and reacting hastily is that it's more difficult to resolve the problem at hand.... And I wasn't able to resolve the problem with the FC and their associates. The fact is, in my opinion and which there's evidence for, is that the FC and associates took the first shots at me.... I'm not able to spell it out in this space but I believe they'd understand that it's true...???
The FC had good intentions but they just didn't have enough information.... And it's quite a serious matter.... It was one of those cases where a sexual abuse victim--myself--got blamed and the perpetrator was excused and let off scot-free.... This was regarding something that happened in the far distant past.... But if the FC didn't want to get me completely out of the police project, they wanted to damage part of my credibility and get me partly out...? Am not 100% clear on the details.... But that was what the situation was; and it was the reason why my original criminal matter was exaggerated and falsified, to use the term loosely.... [There was interference with the evidence and I wasn't able to have a fair trial, in my view.]
It's one thing to talk about this matter and it's another to actually hold the FC and the police accountable. And I believe there should be a cash donation made to a reputable charity which deals with childhood victims of sexual abuse.... A general, sexual assault charity isn't the same because it's too broad but I'll say more on this a little later.... If the FC aren't dealing with money directly in the police project, they should use their influence and/or the police have to be responsible for inviting the firefighters/FC into the police project...! Right???
If all the parties want to be credible and to have a good movie, they need to be transparent and accountable in their own actions.... That's my strong advice.... And it may be one of the ways to relieve the tensions between the DFC and myself...?
The thing about feeling provoked and reacting hastily is that it's more difficult to resolve the problem at hand.... And I wasn't able to resolve the problem with the FC and their associates. The fact is, in my opinion and which there's evidence for, is that the FC and associates took the first shots at me.... I'm not able to spell it out in this space but I believe they'd understand that it's true...???
The FC had good intentions but they just didn't have enough information.... And it's quite a serious matter.... It was one of those cases where a sexual abuse victim--myself--got blamed and the perpetrator was excused and let off scot-free.... This was regarding something that happened in the far distant past.... But if the FC didn't want to get me completely out of the police project, they wanted to damage part of my credibility and get me partly out...? Am not 100% clear on the details.... But that was what the situation was; and it was the reason why my original criminal matter was exaggerated and falsified, to use the term loosely.... [There was interference with the evidence and I wasn't able to have a fair trial, in my view.]
It's one thing to talk about this matter and it's another to actually hold the FC and the police accountable. And I believe there should be a cash donation made to a reputable charity which deals with childhood victims of sexual abuse.... A general, sexual assault charity isn't the same because it's too broad but I'll say more on this a little later.... If the FC aren't dealing with money directly in the police project, they should use their influence and/or the police have to be responsible for inviting the firefighters/FC into the police project...! Right???
If all the parties want to be credible and to have a good movie, they need to be transparent and accountable in their own actions.... That's my strong advice.... And it may be one of the ways to relieve the tensions between the DFC and myself...?
The Firefighters/Fire Chiefs--part 2
There's a third party--or information source--involving the fire people which I'm going to have to consider.... [And I'm not giving out all the information here.] But there was progress from one of the other sources and I appreciate it, as far as it goes....
For the record, one group of the firefighters was the fire chiefs--different groups of them--and they were known by the FC initials in the police project.... There was also a group of police known as the DDs; and they've been involved in my criminal and false criminal matters.... As far as I understand, the main part of the DDs finished their investigation quite a while ago but there was a portion of them who were still working with the FC...and they were known as DFC.... Have heard that. At this time, I believe I'm dealing with the DFC.
Since there was pressure for me to close off my writing to California, and since that particular source was mainly for the chiefs of police--or the CPs--and since I've had reason to believe the FC were reading my blog, I'm planning to do my best to address the remaining issues of the FC and/or DFC in my blog.... Some matters may be sensitive and I don't want to cause any further hardship to anyone by making matters public.... I don't want to escalate the problems any more than they already have been.... [And there has been escalation on both sides--on their side and mine....] So, I'm trying to be calm and reasonable, and to communicate as well as I can; and I believe that's how we'll get through this business. [Unless anybody would like to provide a more private platform for the business...? But I guess they're too nervous of me and don't want to get too close either.... (Whatever.) We'll get through it.]
Also for the record, the CPs had said recently that they wanted to help with the 1932 police project and everything involved, but the DFC issues don't directly involve them and I believe the DFC should be responsible for themselves.... And actually, maybe my blogs will work out well, except for the above consideration of escalation.... Will really do my best not to bring out things that haven't been brought out to the public--in some places--already.... [And it may not be completely possible...?]
For the record, one group of the firefighters was the fire chiefs--different groups of them--and they were known by the FC initials in the police project.... There was also a group of police known as the DDs; and they've been involved in my criminal and false criminal matters.... As far as I understand, the main part of the DDs finished their investigation quite a while ago but there was a portion of them who were still working with the FC...and they were known as DFC.... Have heard that. At this time, I believe I'm dealing with the DFC.
Since there was pressure for me to close off my writing to California, and since that particular source was mainly for the chiefs of police--or the CPs--and since I've had reason to believe the FC were reading my blog, I'm planning to do my best to address the remaining issues of the FC and/or DFC in my blog.... Some matters may be sensitive and I don't want to cause any further hardship to anyone by making matters public.... I don't want to escalate the problems any more than they already have been.... [And there has been escalation on both sides--on their side and mine....] So, I'm trying to be calm and reasonable, and to communicate as well as I can; and I believe that's how we'll get through this business. [Unless anybody would like to provide a more private platform for the business...? But I guess they're too nervous of me and don't want to get too close either.... (Whatever.) We'll get through it.]
Also for the record, the CPs had said recently that they wanted to help with the 1932 police project and everything involved, but the DFC issues don't directly involve them and I believe the DFC should be responsible for themselves.... And actually, maybe my blogs will work out well, except for the above consideration of escalation.... Will really do my best not to bring out things that haven't been brought out to the public--in some places--already.... [And it may not be completely possible...?]
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
The Firefighters/Fire Chiefs
Have actually heard this and that in the past which I had reason to believe was from fire people.... But it's likely they're like the police--they're here, there, and everywhere--and there are different levels of security for the police project.... Anyway, there are two main sources of information I'm following now.... If the fire people have any more legitimate concerns, which haven't been answered yet, then I'll respond to them. If not, then I'll have to walk away from them.... [Will give them a chance for a little while longer.--And I hope I'm not wasting time!!?]
Saturday, August 1, 2015
The Real Competition..., part 2
In August 2014, I wrote a post in my Waterlily Story III about the firefighters.... They've been involved in the police project, along with the police....
The Real Competition...
The real competition--originally--in the police project came from the firefighters/fire chiefs against the police. This had been planned from the beginning in order to keep the police on their toes, more or less....
Right now, I'm still dealing with some concerns from the firefighters and I'm trying not to have to write to the California address any longer, so I'll try to respond in my blogs.... The latest concern I've heard is that the firefighters/chiefs don't want to forgive my criminal matter yet.... And I'd like to know if the fire people were ever informed that my criminal charges were false??? They've either been told, or they haven't been...? So, that's what I'd like to know. Because if they haven't been told, there isn't necessarily any benefit or any reason in me trying to prove myself to them...!? [And it would be a question of the appropriate police informing the fire people....]
[From what I've heard in the past, the criminal issues for the fire people usually come down to either supporting or not supporting the gay issues.... And I've already said I wish to support and promote the movie intentions.... Well, I'll see if the fire people are going to bring up any more legitimate concerns, or not...!?]
Right now, I'm still dealing with some concerns from the firefighters and I'm trying not to have to write to the California address any longer, so I'll try to respond in my blogs.... The latest concern I've heard is that the firefighters/chiefs don't want to forgive my criminal matter yet.... And I'd like to know if the fire people were ever informed that my criminal charges were false??? They've either been told, or they haven't been...? So, that's what I'd like to know. Because if they haven't been told, there isn't necessarily any benefit or any reason in me trying to prove myself to them...!? [And it would be a question of the appropriate police informing the fire people....]
[From what I've heard in the past, the criminal issues for the fire people usually come down to either supporting or not supporting the gay issues.... And I've already said I wish to support and promote the movie intentions.... Well, I'll see if the fire people are going to bring up any more legitimate concerns, or not...!?]
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