Even though they didn't seem to be upset for too long, I'd also like to apologize to the other two men who were affected by my personal letters and the joke, sexual letter.... Regarding the adjudicator, I failed to consider that people don't always say what they mean.--I wanted to think things were going along well, in spite of the conflict in business; and when he sent me a personal greeting in a business letter, I took it as something positive. Before I had left the hearing in August, I saw that the adjudicator was concerned about my case...and I didn't understand that he was becoming more and more upset as I continued to write. I also believed what I wanted to, that he was a single, heterosexual man.... I defied the authority of the above two men--a Vice Chair and a regional manager--and I'm sorry.
Next time, I'd consider that not everyone thinks the way I do.... There are many different people in the world.... And I'd find a peaceful way to get along or drop the matter....
Tuesday, April 30, 2019
Monday, April 29, 2019
Making Amends, Finally
Have written some details in the post below and now I'd like to make a general apology for people who've been reading this blog. I've been writing about some personal letters I'd sent long ago, including a letter with sexual comments which were meant as a joke. Would like to say I'm sorry to anyone who was offended, especially by the sexual letter. In the past, I've tried to justify myself for different reasons but I can admit now that I wasn't thinking clearly. [I acted a little "crazy."] And I thought the man was single but he was married. In an effort to make amends, I've made a cash donation at a mental health agency office at my local courthouse.... Maybe someone else can get some benefit through my mistake...?
At my age now, there won't likely be a "next time," but if I had a conflict in business I wouldn't try to start a new, personal or romantic relationship with any of the employees, not even if they flirted with me. I hope people can forgive me.
In my opinion, not all the actions taken against me were fair...but I wanted to apologize for my part in the problems, and I did make mistakes.
At my age now, there won't likely be a "next time," but if I had a conflict in business I wouldn't try to start a new, personal or romantic relationship with any of the employees, not even if they flirted with me. I hope people can forgive me.
In my opinion, not all the actions taken against me were fair...but I wanted to apologize for my part in the problems, and I did make mistakes.
Wednesday, April 3, 2019
A Good Book
Today, I'd just like to tell about a book which I recently purchased and read. It's mainly for the benefit of members of my church who sometimes read this blog.... In an earlier post called "Learning From The Past," March 4, 2019, I mentioned that there are comparisons between the blacks overcoming slavery and gay rights; and a lady named Ellen White was one of the founders of my church and was a respected author.... Someone wrote a book about her comments about the Civil War in the USA.... The book which I've finished reading is called, "The Enduring Legacy of Ellen G. White and Social Justice," edited or compiled by Jonathan A. Thompson, D.Min., copyright 2017 and printed by Pacific Press.
The Social Justice book is a compilation of presentations that were made by professors and ministers at a symposium at Oakwood University, in Alabama.... Oakwood is a school run by my church for black people. In the book, there was also a reference to a book by Ellen White, Testimonies, volume 9. There are a few chapters specifically about the black people in this book and I appreciated reading them also. Some of her information is now out of date, since our society has changed a lot and the writing was done over 100 years ago...but I find some of it is still helpful and relevant....
Would like to recommend the above resources to members of my church.
The Social Justice book is a compilation of presentations that were made by professors and ministers at a symposium at Oakwood University, in Alabama.... Oakwood is a school run by my church for black people. In the book, there was also a reference to a book by Ellen White, Testimonies, volume 9. There are a few chapters specifically about the black people in this book and I appreciated reading them also. Some of her information is now out of date, since our society has changed a lot and the writing was done over 100 years ago...but I find some of it is still helpful and relevant....
Would like to recommend the above resources to members of my church.
Tuesday, March 5, 2019
A Fairy Tale or a Fable
Have written earlier in this blog that the special police project began long before 1998, and even before I knew about it.... Certain police and some of their associates had been told a false story that I was gay. I don't really know why the story was so exciting for them but I believe the purpose was to get these people to work harder in the police project...they were gay, themselves....
Looking back now, I have to conclude that the false story was more like a fairy tale or a fable...! Really. I'm sorry for the disappointment for these people but there was no truth in the story at all.
Looking back now, I have to conclude that the false story was more like a fairy tale or a fable...! Really. I'm sorry for the disappointment for these people but there was no truth in the story at all.
Monday, March 4, 2019
Learning From The Past
There have been ministers and members in my church who supported me quietly in the police project, over the years. It's just that there's been confusion over my "criminal" and mental health matters; and the project was supposed to be discreet, for the time being....
May have mentioned earlier that some black police officers and gay, black police officers in the project have made comparisons between gay rights and the freedom movement of blacks from slavery in the USA.... My church, Seventh-day Adventist, was formed shortly before and during the Civil War period in the USA. A lot of people know the Civil War was the war over slavery--for it and against it.
According to historians and my own study, the founders of my church mainly took an anti-slavery position and they were vocal about it. But after the war, one author wrote that things died down publicly because the church mistakenly believed that the matter was settled--slaves were free. I believe I've read that some church leaders and members were still making various kinds of comments about slavery, and they didn't all agree with each other.... [And there were still many issues going on with discrimination.]
With gay rights and gay marriage, I believe my church can learn something from our experiences with blacks and slavery.... A professor named Jud Lake, at Southern Adventist University, has written a detailed book about our church and the Civil War. ["A Nation in God's Hands: Ellen White and the Civil War."--Ellen White was a special person and one of the founders of the church.]
Recently, a pastor from my local church wrote in his blog that a monthly magazine for pastors, "Ministry Magazine," which is an international publication of my church and is read also by pastors from other faiths, did an interview with the above book author. I think it's great that ministers have been exposed to this information and I hope they'll share with all their churches about discrimination of all kinds.... Currently, there are campaigns going on for the police to be less racist in their work, for one thing.... [It may be hard if some blacks and others have been more guilty of criminal behaviour, due to their difficult backgrounds, in my opinion?]
Anyway, if and when the police project goes public, there may be some controversy and I believe the above book will be a help for my church in sorting out the issues.... And we can learn from mistakes in the past.... Also, I've done some of my own writing for the benefit of the church....
May have mentioned earlier that some black police officers and gay, black police officers in the project have made comparisons between gay rights and the freedom movement of blacks from slavery in the USA.... My church, Seventh-day Adventist, was formed shortly before and during the Civil War period in the USA. A lot of people know the Civil War was the war over slavery--for it and against it.
According to historians and my own study, the founders of my church mainly took an anti-slavery position and they were vocal about it. But after the war, one author wrote that things died down publicly because the church mistakenly believed that the matter was settled--slaves were free. I believe I've read that some church leaders and members were still making various kinds of comments about slavery, and they didn't all agree with each other.... [And there were still many issues going on with discrimination.]
With gay rights and gay marriage, I believe my church can learn something from our experiences with blacks and slavery.... A professor named Jud Lake, at Southern Adventist University, has written a detailed book about our church and the Civil War. ["A Nation in God's Hands: Ellen White and the Civil War."--Ellen White was a special person and one of the founders of the church.]
Recently, a pastor from my local church wrote in his blog that a monthly magazine for pastors, "Ministry Magazine," which is an international publication of my church and is read also by pastors from other faiths, did an interview with the above book author. I think it's great that ministers have been exposed to this information and I hope they'll share with all their churches about discrimination of all kinds.... Currently, there are campaigns going on for the police to be less racist in their work, for one thing.... [It may be hard if some blacks and others have been more guilty of criminal behaviour, due to their difficult backgrounds, in my opinion?]
Anyway, if and when the police project goes public, there may be some controversy and I believe the above book will be a help for my church in sorting out the issues.... And we can learn from mistakes in the past.... Also, I've done some of my own writing for the benefit of the church....
Tuesday, June 12, 2018
All Their Options
Yesterday, I was trying to be a little bit tactful when I said the divisional Mounties could resign.... [I didn't want to tell them what to do.] Of course they have about three different options....
They can resign, or they can come up with a new and better story--like the one about Henry Thoreau--who is a respected person and writer, or they can let someone else take over while they watch from the sidelines...?
The only thing is, I think these Mounties have had enough time already--except for a little more time to decide--and they shouldn't be allowed to delay much longer, in my opinion. Delay shouldn't be acceptable. I don't know who is above these police and could put pressure on them...besides God...and myself...??? I haven't usually had very much clout, either, and I'm not the best person at standing up for myself.... But I'll pray....
Have been reading Thoreau's book, "Walden," and Thoreau seems to be quite a character! Anyway, if it's too much for the divisional Mounties to take up that story, I don't think we can blame them...? Whatever they want to do...? But they can take a reasonable time--a little longer--to decide; and then I think they should be done....
They can resign, or they can come up with a new and better story--like the one about Henry Thoreau--who is a respected person and writer, or they can let someone else take over while they watch from the sidelines...?
The only thing is, I think these Mounties have had enough time already--except for a little more time to decide--and they shouldn't be allowed to delay much longer, in my opinion. Delay shouldn't be acceptable. I don't know who is above these police and could put pressure on them...besides God...and myself...??? I haven't usually had very much clout, either, and I'm not the best person at standing up for myself.... But I'll pray....
Have been reading Thoreau's book, "Walden," and Thoreau seems to be quite a character! Anyway, if it's too much for the divisional Mounties to take up that story, I don't think we can blame them...? Whatever they want to do...? But they can take a reasonable time--a little longer--to decide; and then I think they should be done....
Monday, June 11, 2018
Correction
Have written a couple posts below that I thought some Mounties were discouraged.... But that may not be the case, after all? It seems these Mounties and/or their friends have still been promoting the false, gay story about me...? Have been writing about this in Waterlily Story II....
Right now, I'm not sure which is the best way to handle the situation? The police don't usually talk to me directly; and they have different levels of authority....
If and when the Mounties at the divisional HQ that I've been writing about decide they don't have a good case, maybe the easiest thing for them would be just to resign from the special police project??? There are other police who could take over for them.... So, I recommend for these divisional Mounties to consider what they want to do...!?
Right now, I'm not sure which is the best way to handle the situation? The police don't usually talk to me directly; and they have different levels of authority....
If and when the Mounties at the divisional HQ that I've been writing about decide they don't have a good case, maybe the easiest thing for them would be just to resign from the special police project??? There are other police who could take over for them.... So, I recommend for these divisional Mounties to consider what they want to do...!?
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