An "X" and a Mockingbird

Sometimes it's the low-budget, unpopular movies which give out helpful details--and sometimes they're true!? [A movie, "The Producers," 1968, might portray something about this phenomenon?] In the case of "Failure to Launch," 2006, there's a running story about a mockingbird problem! And there's a very large and noticeable X-shaped cushion at a paintball park! A connection between a mockingbird and an "X"??? Yes, I think it might be relevant to some of us!? [The "x-men" may refer to the CC police!?]  Note added in February 2023:  The movie, To Kill a Mockingbird, from the 1960s has been connected to the special police project, in my opinion....  They actually wanted to expose some details and weren't necessarily trying to be helpful...but I believe it was a good film!  There was another significant mocking bird film made in Canada, and I seem to have deleted the post where I explained about it earlier...?

Doctor Under Scrutiny--V

This doctor isn't just a psychiatrist--he teaches psychiatry in medical school. He also holds several executive positions--being the Chair of this; and the VP or Vice-Chair of that. *** Have heard this man was given the wrong information about me at the beginning. That was when I had an extreme bad hair day on picture day at school [second grade]; and the doctor was told, "Look at this poor girl from a dysfunctional home...!" Some people wanted to have the maximum effect in marketing and publicity, it seems!?

Their Work Is Theirs--II

Have said a number of times in the past that churches are supposed to be a help to society; but the members of churches are part of the society we live in! If there are issues which concern our society generally, even church members may not have a firm grasp of them--if they've been influenced by society. One advantage of TV and movies is that they're usually seen by large numbers of the public. *** Unless a film/TV show is specifically making a point of saying that some details relate to a particular person, we have to see the stories as fictional. If there are specific cases of libel, they can be dealt with through legal means. [There may be issues to deal with but we're working on them. Separate libel cases also may not be necessary, if there are broader means of getting results. When there's competition in business, especially, sometimes all that's needed is to market a better product!? But I can't answer all these questions at this time.] *** There are other ways of spreading information besides through entertainment, of course! If people can look at the real issues, and the real individuals involved if necessary, I think it will be more productive than looking at what's been done in film--at least, so far!? Am not sure what's ahead but we're working on it. There are other people who know more than I do.

Everyone Has to be Accountable--II

A police official whom I referred to may or may not be supporting me at this time. Am not sure what he's been doing lately, if anything. [It's possible he's even retired!?] But he was a top police inspector when I met him; and he made several comments about police work. At the time, I didn't know everything that was going on and didn't know enough to ask! [I had made a complaint to the RCMP in Ottawa about police behaviour not too long before then. The RCMP had also referred me to the Interpol division, which I contacted.] But since then, and before I knew it, there have been police who were trying to accomplish something worthwhile. A person can't necessarily say the end justifies the means!? But some police and their friends have been sincere and wanted to find the right answers. As I said before, I'm not exactly sure about which police were on the right track? [I know of some.] I have an idea but don't know everything. We'll be working on the issues--the cops do their thing and I do mine!

Doctor Under Scrutiny--III

If I said people shouldn't find fault with my views [regarding Christians and homosexuality], I was referring to people who have heard all the right facts about me. Of course there are still questions about my criminal matters, etc. It's been complicated; and there's a lot to sort out--I realize that. *** Expect to be taking serious steps this week to see how much progress can be made.--Will be working on official business.

Doctor Under Scrutiny--II

This psychiatrist whom I've been writing about has apparently had conflicts with some of the police. The police film which I mentioned shows some conflict [even though the details may be mixed up or reversed, as I've written about before]. And I found it unusual that the hospital staff member who spoke to me about a movie was also quite hostile--several times--about the idea of police involvement! *** If there was "An Unfinished Life" film [2004], about a particular person, I guess the parties wanted to wrap up that story!? And it seems to me the doctor's involvement makes a difference, at this time.

Doctor Under Scrutiny

There are psychiatrists who are sometimes asked to advise about the content of TV shows or movies. Have heard of the practise and it's not uncommon. In my case, a psychiatrist has been involved either in advising about films which concerned me; or else he's advised police who had film/TV connections in the gay rights project. This doctor is also on the staff or administration of both the hospital which is supervising me and also the provincial agency which was ordered by the criminal court to direct the hospital. Will be taking this matter up with the hospital. There has apparently been a "code of silence" around my case--that people [everywhere] were directed to let me speak for myself with no interference or assistance from anywhere.--That's my understanding, more or less. But some people have presumed to know what my answers were going to be! And they've had a vested interest. If they put pressure on me to respond according to their wishes, especially around gay issues or romantic matters, they may be bordering on discrimination or sexual harassment. *** There are two films which include medical doctor or psychiatrist characters which I believe have some connection to the psychiatrist above. One is "Silence of the Lambs," 1991; and the other is "Border Patrol," 2000. [Have I mentioned earlier that the first film shows something about what psychiatrists who work with the criminally insane--or "mentally-disordered" persons--have to deal with?] There's also a third film which includes a name like his and has to do with police--and possibly my criminal matters [in a fictional and/or symbolic story]. This last film also includes a police name which I'm somewhat familiar with--have spoken to a police inspector about some police business, partly at his request. 

Cadillac Jack

The real "Cadillac Jack" was a rodeo rider who was wrongfully convicted of murder in the 1960s. A TV movie came out in about 1998. It was called, "Still Holding On: The Legend of Cadillac Jack." People can look it up if they're interested.

Christmas at Cadillac Jack's--II

After looking on the Internet, have found my church sponsored some other Christmas programs since 2001. Wasn't aware of them earlier and, except for the newest one, haven't seen them advertised. The one from 2007 was the last one of that kind which they've distributed, so far. And this one will be shown again this month. People can check their listings or look up the name through Google. [My church is a non-profit organization and they don't mind people advertising the films.--They say so in a website. From my side, I'm not promoting any of these films for commercial purposes--for the record.--I have to make sure to abide by the rules of the blog site.] *** Also for the record, I'm not authorized at this time to promote the film as being about anything in particular. It's a story about family at Christmastime. But I'll be discussing the matter with some official sources.

Christmas at Cadillac Jack's

My church doesn't normally get very involved in theatre or theatrical productions. The above story [title] isn't especially significant in itself, in my opinion. But I believe it's an allegorical interpretation of the gay rights project--according to the understanding of the contact who gave out the information. And the film especially shows the part which concerns me--the Canadians and me!? Won't try to point out too many details, right now, and I wouldn't want to step on anyone's toes! *** Allegoric, or symbolic, details might show a married couple to represent an association in business. And a parent and child might show someone who was there first [in business] and another person who followed after them. *** The adult daughter who had been adopted many years before was wearing green and white at the end.--Just wanted to point it out, for people who might be interested!

They're Good At Their Day Jobs!?

The local, elderly advisor whom I mentioned in the gay rights project has maybe been a "devil's advocate" for the bad twin party--to make sure they got all their rights!? Anyway, he probably hasn't known or had time to see what was done with all his information!? And he possibly never will. But he's an educated person in a high position(s) in his normal employment. Have commented a number of times over the years that some of these people are better at their day jobs than at Hollywood business! But I'm hoping we'll get everything settled quite soon. It may be possible!?

Just When It's Looking Hopeless...

Last night, there were some very nice Christmas concerts on TV. And then I happened to see a program on a Canadian cable channel which was called, "Christmas at Cadillac Jack's." I knew this show had been sponsored by my church in the USA a couple years ago, but didn't have a chance to see it until now. I had also found a movie about "Cadillac Jack" a little earlier. He was a real-life cowboy, if I recall, who was falsely accused and convicted of a serious crime. He spent some time in a large prison while he was working on an appeal; and he also created a rodeo program for his fellow prisoners and their families. His work was very much appreciated and he was eventually cleared and released from prison. I believe he also continued the rodeo at the prison after he left. *** There's an actual restaurant called Cadillac Jack's, if I understand correctly, and it's where the Christmas show was mostly filmed. The story has a similar theme as another 2007 film, "The Note," which I've mentioned before. But this second show adds a lot of other details, including a "bad Santa," by the way! *** Can write some more about these matters after I have time to review and think about them. [Am I hopeful?--I feel very thankful and certainly hopeful!] *** Won't bother trying to deal with the local police separately right now. Will contact one of my other official sources, with evidence, and some police are connected to them. [Not sure if many are but there are some.]

Cleaning Up the Side Issues--V

Had a quick look in my files and I have a copy of a letter from my former landlady's psychiatrist. She had been seeing him for 5 years, at the time, starting 4 years before I ever met her. Won't publish many details but the letter is available if anyone needs to see it privately.

Saying Inappropriate Things

When I filled out my first landlord/tenant application in 1998, I hadn't yet processed all the issues I was dealing with in my mind. It was an unusual situation for me to be in, at the time. And also, it was a question of understanding how the laws applied in that case and what kinds of terms were used. I had a feeling I was being harassed but it was harder to explain it right away. *** Have noticed that even celebrities have made mistakes in their public conversations! [Won't comment further.] And one time I had to work with a lawyer [English-speaking Canadian] who didn't know a "Dutch" person was from Holland! [And then there are the "Pennsylvania Dutch" who have a German background!] *** When people are dealing with matters outside of their education and experience, especially, they can easily make mistakes and say the wrong things. That's something I've been noticing. *** As far as children go, I think all of them probably say things that sound funny sometimes!

A Plug For Lawyers

If I said not all Legal Aid lawyers are bad, or that some are dedicated and competent, I could have said some are VERY dedicated and competent, and even experienced! And I've been thankful to receive their services during the past 11 years or so. [If I had a larger income, I'd have been glad to pay for legal services myself. But have had to do what I could; and was thankful to receive some help at little or no cost.]

Will Support Him In Business

Would like to go on record that I'm willing to support John/JB in settling this business. Haven't received any definite confirmation or facts but have heard something to the effect that he wanted to support me. It's possible other parties around me think he's a fictional character, by now!? But he's not. Right now, it's not about reliving past fictional stories but it's about getting something accomplished! And nobody can live in the past--not really. We need to move forward; and it has been the purpose of the gay rights project. [If Hollywood people have been willing to market helpful stories and ideas, and especially to explore new ground, then it's to their credit. It has mostly been within the context of entertainment but that's their main business. If we want another platform, we have to go elsewhere, right? But it was Hollywood and their contacts who began promoting issues within the gay rights project. We have to acknowledge them and they may not be finished yet!] John has been somewhat removed from this local area for many years. But whatever his circumstances are otherwise, I'd like to work with him. I'm willing to cooperate and support him. [It's not that I can promise to agree 100% on everything--we can negotiate. But I'd like to be optimistic.]

Was She An Agent?--II

Have heard this lady has consulted with parties about issues in the gay rights project. Whether they asked her to do so, or if she offered, I've never asked her to work or speak for me! And I hope the other parties aren't counting on her too much to resolve this business? From what I know of her, she doesn't have good business skills; and she doesn't follow through. She has also been known, by people close to her, for not thinking enough about what she speaks. [If I can point it out, I believe there's a Bible verse which says something like, "The talk of the lips tendeth only to penury." In other words, being "All talk and no action" isn't profitable! You need to be able to support your "talk" with a constructive plan and action--if you have worthwhile ideas!] *** It was somewhat helpful that I became acquainted with this lady. She tried to be a friend, at times. At least she wasn't hiding in the woodwork, like other parties have been! But otherwise, I haven't worked directly with this person, as I've stated. [If there are further issues to settle, we'll work on them.]

Was She An Agent?

It's possible the lady who I thought would want to agree to the "Desperately Seeking Susan" movie, which wasn't about gay issues, doesn't want to look on her involvement in the gay rights project as accidental? When she met her first husband many years ago, she was attracted to his singing voice; and even though she had no special qualifications, she ended up getting him a job as an entertainer in a popular and quality tourist location. The man, himself, didn't have good credentials to begin with--but apparently he had talent! As far as I understand, the marriage broke up fairly soon afterwards. The lady apparently wasn't able to keep up with the social demands and the business involved. That's the best of my understanding--my opinion! Not too long afterwards, the singer went to the far north of Canada and got a job working as an announcer for a radio station.--It was part of a radio/TV network. This man made this effort on his own, if I'm not mistaken. His wife, or estranged wife at the time, didn't help him. But she went to live near him for family reasons. And before too long, the man was killed in an accident. *** So, is the above lady an agent? She wanted to see herself as one? And others supported her? I don't have the facts. From my view, I've said the parties could pay her, or not pay her, whatever they saw fit! [Have also said the mistakes and liabilities of some should be deducted from their compensation! But they might be able to redeem themselves, at least somewhat, if they would work to overcome their mistakes from the past!?] *** Anyway, I don't feel the above points are up to me to decide!? This lady hasn't worked directly with me; and she can negotiate with those who did.

World AIDS Day

Today is World AIDS Day. There is certainly a lot of suffering brought on by AIDS. If we want to care about people, this isn't a subject to be ignored. In the western world, Christian families especially may be removed from it. For now, I just wanted to acknowledge this day. [People can find more information on the Internet if they wish to.]